Badger, All Over The Place

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So the Eagle did something stupid this morning as I was leaving for work. He told me, a person who he knows has anxiety issues and is prone to stressing un-necessarily, not to stress. This of course has set me off after a week where my anxiety has already been off the charts. He wants to talk to me about something and I know what it is but I am not supposed to stress about it anyway. Stupid Eagle of course I am going to stress and work myself up over it because that is what I do. My depression has also kicked in. I just need a severe headache/migraine to decide to join in to make the Un-Holy trinity that is the Badger at her worse.

My diet is also a little off the wagon at the moment and I am blaming the weather. It has been raining most of the week and we are set to have another system come through over the weekend. It is quite unusual at this time of year. I have to get back on it and especially give up the coffee again as I think that is one of the reason’s my anxiety has rearing its head this week.

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I am a little late, three weeks or so, but we have had our football codes grand finals and we had one true fairy tale and one not so much but could have been. Congratulations to the Richmond Tigers who beat the Adelaide Crows for the AFL premiership. Either way it was going to be emotional for both teams. I was more rooting for the Crows due to the fact that my boss is s Crows fan and they have a rough year last year. Richmond, on the other hand, had not won a premiership in 37 years.

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Now with the Rugby League the talking point before the game was more out the pre-game entertainment while this year was Macklemore. I am not a rap/hip hop fan per say but I do like Macklemore quite a bit. The reason why this is a talking point is at the moment we are having a postal vote on whether or not gay marriage should become legal. Macklemore, a supporter of gay marriage, has a song called Same Love and chose to perform it as part of his show. Those opposed didn’t think a Grand Final should be a place to push for agenda at. He sung the song and it was wonderful, his whole performance was wonderful and he truly looked like he was enjoying himself.

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Well back to actual game. This one was between the premiership favourites the Melbourne Storm and the underdogs (no truer words) North Queensland Cowboys. The Cowboys had only just scraped into the finals series as teams that should have won lost. They were missing there star player in Jonathan Thurston who had been out most of the season due to first a calf injury and then a shoulder one. It was very unlikely that the Cowboys were going to win but after four minutes it seemed even less likely as Prop Shaun Fensom broke his leg which meant they were down a player for the rest of the game. Melbourne won easily 34-6. It was a good send off for the star-halfback Cooper Cronk who was leaving the club at the end of the game. He will either retire or join another club in Sydney.

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Wedding preparations have been a little on the quiet side as I have other things on my mind. I have been focused a little on the music side of things and in particular the music at the ceremony.

I had decided that I wanted to walk down to the isle to a song written/performed by an Australian singer/band. It is just trying to find the right one that I am having trouble with.

I keep coming back to INXS’s Never Tear Us Apart, as the Eagle loves INXS and it is a great song, but if go with that one then I want to find an acoustic version of it and by INXS themselves and not a cover. I then flick between trying to find something by Angus and Julia Stone, Kate Miller-Heidke, Sia, Katie Noonan or Bernard Fanning. I then went in another direction and checked out The Temper Traps Sweet Disposition as a lot of people have said that is a good song to use. It just doesn’t suit what I am going for, though to be honest I don’t know what I am going for. I think of Birds of Tokyo and in particular Lanterns but think that is probably more of a recessional song than a processional. I go something truly sappy like Savage Gardens Truly, Madly Deeply, Guy Sebastian’s Angels Brought Me Here or go a little retro with Angry Anderson’s Suddenly.

I am probably overthinking it but that is the Virgo in me and it will probably get worse as it gets closer. If you have any ideas let me know because I would really like some input.

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Badger On A Diet

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So due to my wedding and my doctor instructing me to do so I am now on a diet. I am 10 or so kilo’s overweight according to BMI, though admittedly I do not look it, I have high cholesterol (worrying but controllable) and an iron deficiency.

A couple of years ago I had a personal trainer and a gym membership but I gave that up due to the expense. So when it came to exercise I will admit to being a little lax. I was given a FitBit for my birthday by the Eagle and my mother and I have to admit it is a great motivator, more than the PT and gym membership ever was. Now almost every morning I will get up around 5 am and walk my mother’s dachshund, Winni, and my Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, Lady. Occasionally my sister’s min-fox x Chihuahua, Steve, will escape and follow us or if I am joined by someone we will take him along.

As for the diet, totally given up coffee and soft-drinks. I really only drink water and the occasional cup of tea and meal replacement shake. I only allow myself bread at the end of the week. I couldn’t give it up completely as I am part Greek and I love my bread. I have oats every weekday morning and Monday and Tuesday for lunch I bring in a bowl of raw vegetables for lunch. I use the FitBit app to keep track on what I am eating.

I weigh myself every day. I used to do it once a week on Friday but I hated the set of scales we had as I seemed to be putting on weight rather than losing it. So I bought a new set of scales and have come to a conclusion that the weight gain was most likely putting on muscle as I have now begun to lose weight. Actually a lot of people in my business unit are on some kind of health kick which is great.

 

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A Wedding Update

My sister-in-law’s to be have offered their assistance with the Eagle’s older sister offering to assist with the decoration side of things as well as make the bouquets. She is really crafty and though I would love to be I am not. I also don’t have the time while I think she does. I have nailed down the Bridesmaid dresses and possibly my own. I just need to finalise my flower girls dress and decide whether or not her twin brother will be a page boy and if I am going to go that far with it all.

We are most likely going to have a jumping castle at the reception as we have the land to do it and it will be fun for the kids and it will keep them occupied. It was the Eagle’s sisters idea and she just happens to have one on hand. She also has a marquee which is also handy.

 

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Badger’s Wedding – The Date is Set

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So me and the Eagle have set a date. From now on I think that is what I will call him when I refer to him in my posts. He is a Ravenclaw after all and his favourite NRL rugby league team is the Manly Sea-Eagles so it is fitting. He goes for divisive football teams, he goes for the Collingwood in AFL. It is weird that he has chosen teams and got sorted into the house with bird emblems because he doesn’t like to fly and doesn’t like heights.

After sitting down and going over the calendar print outs for the next couple of years we come to agreement on this date.

Saturday 9th March 2019

We decided that we didn’t want to get married in Summer or Winter due to the either being too hot or cold though admittedly Brisbane Winters are not all that bad but you never know. So that left Autumn or Spring. We ruled out Autumn of next year because of time and money. We did consider the last couple of months of November because I wanted my one of my nieces, who is born in the first week of November, to be older as she is a Junior Bridesmaid and I wanted her to be a little older when we got married.

So that left 2019 as being the year. April and May are just a little busy due to birthdays and wedding anniversaries already so that left March and Spring. We did consider September but with the lead up to Christmas and another batch of birthdays in October and November, March seemed to be a best option.

Now that we have timeline to work to we or should I say I can start planning. The Eagle has left it all on my shoulders as he believes that the only things he needs to do is ask and then show up. I have been offered help and I have already nailed down most of the wedding party and decided on colours and themes and such. The colours are classic black and white with splashes of red with a bit of a superhero theme as I am Harley and the Eagle is my Joker. The men in the wedding party will all be wearing superhero themed ties with the Eagle wearing a Joker one.

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We are looking towards having a backyard reception. My eldest brother has an acre lot and we will most likely have the reception there with the ceremony possibly at a local park that has a gazebo and waterfall. I am trying to do with on a strict budget as neither of us have much money.

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A Badger’s Idea

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I have mentioned before that I like to do written roleplay and in particular Harry Potter roleplay. I was a member of a site for a many years that I eventually was a mod on before it was shut down and I have been in and out sites since even running my own for a while. I was a member of site at the end of last year beginning of this but sort of lost interest mainly because I believed that the site didn’t have balance, this I believe is my anxiety speaking, and since then I have done numerous searches for a new site to play on and have found that most sites have the same issue or there is an element in the plot that I don’t like or think is feasible even though in most cases it is an AU site.

They all seem to be weighted towards the dark side of the force, to borrow a Star Wars phrase, and it bothers me greatly. Look, I see the allure in playing the dark-wizard but if you give the them an extra power or just power all together you have to give the opposition an opposing power or something they can use to fight back. You can’t just have a site full of Death Eaters and no Order or Order like group to fight back with. It’s no fun trying to play a hero or just a neutral character when the scale is in heavily in favour of the dark or dark sympathetic, especially when you feel like you have to be secretive all the time.

So I have been trying to think of a plotline that I can start my own site with and I think I have it but I really need feedback on it and also assistance. I was trying to find a website when I can voice such a thing but had no luck and had put something up in OOC section of one of the sites that I am a member of but I have had no responses so I thought that I might put it up here and see if I get a nibble.

 

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The missing 20.

 

It is a little known tale that came from the second war. One month after the death of Albus Dumbledore 20 persons with magic in their blood disappeared. Differing in age, from the age of 15 and up, blood-status, and sex vanished without a trace within a span of a day. All disappearances were reported to the Ministry but with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named and his Death Eaters on the verge of taking of the Ministry of Magic the missing were soon forgotten and were assumed either dead or had left the country.

 

June 2017, 20 years later the 20 reappear. 10 appear in Glastonbury the other 10 in Seven Dials, London. They all appear to have not aged but are aware that they have.

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Now it is a work in progress as I want there to be a reason for their disappearance, but maybe that can be a part of the plot, and I also want them to have obtained something while they were away though I don’t necessarily want it to be the same thing though whatever it will be will either fall on the dark or light side. Where they arrived will define what side of the line are aligned with as I see Glastonbury as the light and Seven Dials as the dark though I guess this could change if a different location suits better.

So if there are any role players out there and think this a good idea and would like to assist I will be mighty grateful.

 

Song Of The Day

 

Badger’s Big News

So the bf is no longer the bf any longer he is now the fiancé. Being the un-romantic kind he took me and one of my nieces to a local mall told me I had a budget and to choose a ring. I found one, he bought it and I am now an engaged badger. 


 

So I guess you can say that I have added a little more anxiety to the picture as I know have a wedding to arrange though when that will be I have no idea. If I had the money I would want as soon as possible but money is going to be the problem. I have debt on top of debt at the moment and the fiancé no longer has a job as he quit it due to personality clashes and the stress that the job had been bringing him. He also has no idea what he wants to do next and knowing him as I do he will take his time and be lazy about it too.

 

I guess the other big news is that my sister no longer lives with me. After another stint in hospital she has been released and has got a place of her own or she may be living with people she knows. We are not sure which one as she hasn’t really told us anything. She took her dog and then returned him and says that she is going to collect her stuff. She has also broken into the house twice.

 

My mother is no longer speaking to my youngest brother due to his wife in one of her fights where her opponent has no idea that they are fighting. Though admittedly he is not making an effort to talk to her so maybe he is more aware than we know. He usually calls her once a week and hasn’t since the dispute occurred. She though does have a good reason for her anger at my brother and sister-in-law.

 

State of Origin starts tonight and for the first time in a long time it seems that I will have to watch the match. I really don’t want to watch as I was going to start my yearly watch of Cowboy Bebop tonight but the fiancé is coming over to watch the match as he is unable to as he can’t get a signal where he is at the moment. He really needs to move in and with my sister gone he can though I guess with him being unemployed….

 

 Song Of The Day

 

Badger Music

 

I have written about my fandom loves and sporting loves but never really gotten into my musical tastes and my background when it comes to music. I don’t think that there is a person alive that can honestly say that they do not like music of some kind.

I love music, always have. In high school I was in the school band and choir and attended the Sydney School Eisteddfods a couple of times in their choir section. I played the flute and sang a little though admittedly I was not the best of playing the flute mainly cause unlike most women I do have an issue of doing two things at once, that being playing and reading music at the same time. I guess also my anxiety would rear its head even then as I was never very good a singing solo either due to nerves.

I have attended a few concerts though probably not as many as I would like to. My first concert I ever saw I believe was Salt N’ Peppa and that was with my sister and her friend and it was more for my sister than for me even though the concert was in and around my birthday. The next concert was once again for my sister and that was Madonna, the very first time that she came out to Australia. My sister was a huge fan of Madonna back then.

All other concerts that I attended have been here in Brisbane and they are:

  • Coldplay (twice)
  • Dave Matthews Band (twice)
  • Snow Patrol
  • Counting Crows
  • Powderfinger (though not their farewell shows)
  • The Screaming Jets

I had always wanted to see U2 in concert but I have a feeling that I won’t ever go to another concert again due to my anxiety and the fact that I now have an issue with crowds and my bf does too. I would have like to have gone to a music festival but maybe I am a little too old now though maybe if there is a good line-up maybe the Byron Bay Blues and Roots festival might be a good one to attend.

Actually there probably one gig that I would probably try to attend if they ever come to Australia again and I will drag the bf with me if I have to and that is my favourite band at the moment and that is Florence and the Machine. Actually if Florence Welch came on her own and did solo shows I would go in heartbeat. I honestly believe that she is one of the best female singers in the world right now, probably second to Adele. There is just something about her that speaks to me and I have been saying lately that she is my spirit animal/idol. We also share the same birthday, so a fellow Virgo.

I have also gone to attended a few musicals and at one stage I tried to attend one a year with my mother, that is if there was a good show playing. I have seen:

  • The Lion King (twice, once in Las Vegas and once in Brisbane)
  • The Producers (Brisbane)
  • Wicked (Sydney)
  • Chicago (twice Broadway and Brisbane)
  • The Phantom of the Opera (Brisbane)
  • Rock of Ages (Brisbane)
  • Jesus Christ Superstar (Sydney)
  • Buddy (Sydney)
  • Singing in the Rain (Brisbane)

I think I have seen more than that but off the top of my head that is all I can remember. I have though been to a couple of cabaret shows one in Las Vegas while on a Contiki tour and again for a hen’s night a couple of years ago at a restaurant on the Gold Coast called Dracula’s. I have also attended a couple of Cirque Du Soleil shows

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Decisive Badger

I have many faults, I will never ever say that I am perfect because in my mind perfection equals normality and I would never ever want to be called normal. So I cannot be called perfect though I do have perfectionist streak at times, but that is the Virgo in me. I can be lazy and procrastinate a lot and I am absolutely terrible when it comes to money and making decisions when it comes to money. I am probably more selfish than I would like to be also and I am struggling with this quite a bit at the moment but this is probably my anxiety, which I guess is another reason why I am not perfect/normal.

One thing that I am and that has been pointed out and something that I am kind of proud of is that I am decisive. If I say that I am going to do something I will do it though I will think on it for a while before I act. Two things I did over the weekend prove this.

I have stated that I wanted to get a Wonder Woman tattoo and wanted to do it before the movie comes out. I decided this a couple of months after getting my Harley Quinn diamonds tattoo because I did debate on getting a Joker J tattoo. I decided to go with a more feminist bent instead. So I now I had Harley on left wrist/forearm and Wonder Woman on my right. My good and bad sides. I guess this is the selfish decision that I made over the weekend.

 

 

The second one is something that is a little selfish I guess because it was for me but it was also for my family and will kick off, hopefully, the renovation of the house for its possible sale. I got my room painted. It was something that I had considered for over a year and me and the bf had gone to Bunnings (a hardware chain here in Australia) a couple of time and got colour swatches. I made a decision to do it two weekends ago and after consultation with family members a colour was decided upon.

We got the paint and other utensils to complete the job on Friday with the intent on doing it over the weekend as it was a long one due to Labour Day. Saturday I was in a lazy mood so me and the bf decided on Sunday as the day with touch ups on Monday if required. Sunday I cleared out the room before my bf arrived as he told me to have it done bright an early and then turned up later than I thought he would, though that is quite typical because as my mother said there was work to be done so naturally he was lazy. He helped move the items of furniture that needed to be moved out and moved the bed to the middle of the room. It was the only piece of furniture that could not be moved.

Myself and he then painted the room with assistance from my 9 year old niece and my sister’s sometime boyfriend. My niece helped as way of distracting her as her guinea pig died the night before and the sometimes boyfriend offered and said that he knew what he was doing though probably didn’t or was too distracted by my sister. He was planning on using the remainder of the paint to do my sisters room though to do that she will need to clean it and that it a challenge in itself.

My room though looks great and I am pleased with the outcome though we will still need to paint the trims and doors as they are still the original creamy colour they were before and that colour really doesn’t work well with the new colour of the walls.

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Equal Opportunity Badger

 

Don’t knock it if you haven’t tried it. I have been told this many a time and have had it used as a weapon, of sorts, against me. Last year I was told that if I didn’t watch the movie Avatar my bf would not go and see Batman Vs Superman with me. He is sort of threatening it again but this time with Fate of the Furious and Wonder Woman but I think I can get around this one since I have not seen any of the Fast and Furious movies and since none of them are available to binge on Netflix or Stan here in Australia I can’t watch them. Well I guess I could buy the movies (yeah right) or borrow and I am pretty sure that the second maybe an option if his brother or bff owns them.

Well any who Fast and Furious is not what this post is about it is actually going to be about Spider-Man and another possible blackmail attempt by my bf though I am not sure what he is going to resist seeing with me, most likely Justice League at the end of the year due to his loathing of Ben Affleck. So I am going to into try to find a connection and possible liking for Spider-Man, like I did for Superman previously and am going to embark on watching/binging on the animated Spectacular Spider-Man over the weekend/week. Spider-Man, along with the Hulk, are his favourite superheroes and I have a sneaky suspicion that I will be forced to go and see Spider-Man: Homecoming when it comes to the theatres in the next couple of months.

Alas it is hard being a DC girl when you are surrounded by Marvel men.

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Well I watched the first season and had a discussion in relation to Spider-Man with my bf over the weekend while trying to convince him to go and see Lego: Batman which he refused to do saying that it was a wait til DVD movie, seriously thinking that I might torrent it, illegal as it is though I will buy it when it gets released. Our discussion in relation to Spidey was why he considered him his favourite. I can understand why too. As a young boy seeing someone that is also young doing amazing things and being a smart mouth to adults while doing these amazing things would be relatable.

Well any who back to the show. Still can’t see the appeal really but then I am not sure this is the best example that I can get of the character in this medium. The theme song was good and I like the way they indicated when he was using the Spidey-Sense but all round I couldn’t really connect with the characters or the stories being told. All the characters except maybe Gwen Stacey came across as rather self-serving and shallow. The animation was not the best rather blockish and lifeless for my taste though Marvel has not done animation well, with the exception of anything related to X-Men. That may change as they are now owned by Disney and this iteration was done before Disney bought them.

I do have the second season and will watch it as Venom was introduced in the last episode and I do like Venom, weird I know. I also have Spider-Man: The New Animated Series with Neil Patrick Harris voicing Peter Parker/Spider-Man and might give the Ultimate Spider-Man a go. I might also try live action with the Toby McGuire/Andrew Garfield movies though will probably think on this a little more as recommendation wise they are not really held in good esteem.

I will keep you posted though.

Badger, It’s Been A While

I feel like breaking into song and singing a little Staind at the moment but this is not really the time or even the place. I doubt that anyone would appreciate me breaking into song. I am not Kevin Smith after all (he always sings it when he says the phrase).

Still having inspiration and concentration issues. Started seeing my psychologist again and she has suggested that I defer on the study until I can calm done. Have done a little bit of travelling over the last month in which the thought of flying really started stressing me out which has never happened before as I have been mentioned in a previous post that I love flying. Saw my father for the first time in 27 years while on said travel which was really emotional as he is not a well man (suffers from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s). The second lot of travel took me up to a cyclone affected area of North Queensland to do a little recovery work where strangely my anxiety decided to play nice for all but one day and that was due to my dislike of confrontation. We also had a really good EAP (Employee Assistance Program) rep available.

Sister was in hospital again but is now out and being a pain in ass. She wants my bed because I have a better mattress and naturally I don’t want to give it up because it is my bed. Booked a cruise for next year for my bf’s 50th. Since he doesn’t like boats it is going to be interesting. Family are planning on selling the family home due to the fact that my stepfather and my mother have split. Might finally get the money that he owes me.

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Want to get a semicolon tattoo either behind my one of my ears or on the same wrist as my Harley’s Diamonds tattoo. Also want get a Wonder Woman tattoo on the opposing wrist before the movie comes out. BTW the trailers are awesome and so it the Justice League ones. Speaking of DC properties been reading a lot of comic books lately due to the travel and a podcast that I listen to. If you like DC comics and don’t mind long podcasts and I mean 10 to 12 hour long podcasts listen to Weird Science DC. They are really insightful and review every DC related comic weekly. They also treat their listeners well are very funny.

Though this is my first in while on this blog I have put up a few posts on my review blog in which I have put up reviews for the following:

Ready Player One (Book)

Riverdale (TV)

Assassination Classroom (Anime)

Cowboy Bebop (Anime)

Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movie)

Logan (Movie)

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Intimidated Badger

 

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Happy New Year everyone and I hope everyone had  a great holiday season. I am sorry that I have not posted anything recently and I would like to say to that I have just been really busy but to be honest and I do try to  be as honest as possible, I mean that is one of the qualities us badgers are known for, but I have been a little lazy and also I have been having issues with inspiration.

 

My creative side has kind of dried up of late and I am also having trouble focusing on what I am supposed to be focusing on and even on stuff that I want to be doing like writing in general. I am blaming the heat partially because I, like my Huffflepup, don’t like the sun and it don’t like me. I will also blame my anxiety issues because well that will probably play a factor cause it does make me distracted to a point.

 

Last but not least is the fact that as I have mentioned I am doing some studying at the moment and the last subject that I did we had to do a role play in which we had to act out a meeting we arranged and then do the minutes for and have it recorded and added as part of our assessment. Now with my anxiety issues and my issues with nervousness and public speaking I found this incredibly intimidating and nerve racking and it drained me. We then went into the next topic which also I find intimidating so much so that I have not even started doing it (I should be doing it now) and it is due next week.

 

The subject it Project Management and I actually have an interest in project work though admittedly managing a project has no interest to me what so ever. I like the idea of working on a team with a particular goal in mind and being there from start to finish but actually managing other people and giving instructions just intimidates me.

 

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