Unsettled Badger

 

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So my anxiety has flared up again in a big bad way over the last week or so.

Maybe it is the weather, it has been cold even for winter in Queensland, which is usually mild.

Maybe my luck wore out and the medication is no longer working.

Maybe it is change, and this is the one I am leaning towards.

I have moved positions at work. I am still pretty much doing the same job with a few extras thrown in but I have physically moved desks and maybe it is that change that has unsettled me. I am answering and working with different people now and maybe I got a little complacent where I was. I am happy about one thing about it though. There was one person in the team I used to work for that was really starting to get on my nerves, actually he gets on everyone in the teams nerves, and I could feel a blow up coming and I am glad I won’t be around to see it or participate in it. I don’t like confrontation after all.

I woke up this morning with another panic attack and of course this had unsettled me even more today. I just can’t seem to calm down and my mind is constantly buzzing and I am twitchy. I joked with my step father a couple of weeks ago that the medication helps me from jumping out the window of my building and today the medication isn’t working and kind of feel that way, I am not suicidal or anything it is just the twitchiness.

Yesterday was my sister-in-law’s 40th birthday and she was not looking forward to it. Mine is next month and I said that I didn’t care but maybe I do care a bit more than I say I do. I just feel that I should be somewhere else in my life instead of where I am but I think there are a lot of people that are that way. I am not going to blame anyone else for the choices that I made however and I going to keep on being the young almost 40 year old that I am.

We are throwing a high tea for her on Saturday afternoon which I have a lot of baking to do for it. I am going to try to make it as gluten-free as possible for her as she tries to eat that way anyway despite not being celiac or gluten intolerant though her son, my nephew, is.

I am still on my DC binge though it exclusively Batman: The Animated Series, I am almost finished season 2. I have finished reading all of Lev Grossman’s Magician books and am now onto Ransom Riggs Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children. Queensland won the State of Origin two games to one.

Song of the Day  

Badger On A DC Binge

I guess it is not a binge in the traditional sense but whenever I have time these days I am usually reading or watching something DC related. The only times that I have not done this have been when I decided to rewatch what I have of the Magicians (see my review of the show so far) and when I went over to the “dark side” and watched Deadpool with my bf and also read one of the comics. To be honest I didn’t find the comic all that smart or funny like many people have said they are and to me he just came off as insane.

Well any who back to my binge.

I think what has started this binge is the most recent DC reboot which is being called Rebirth. First off I am not the biggest comic book reader and though I do own a few selected titles (Flashpoint Paradox and a few of the Kevin Smith titles) I had never read a whole arc, if we can call it that, from start to finish.  I have read everything within in the Rebirth titles and especially enjoyed The Flash titles, Titans, Aquaman and Green Arrow.

This had bled out a little and I am now reading the Darkest Night titles, a Nightwing title and Cyborg because there is just something about Cyborg that I like. I have also finished reading Killing Joke because of the movie being release in August.

On the video side of things I have watched the following:

  • The first season of Young Justice
  • Half way through the Justice League Unlimited
  • Working my way through the Batman: Brave and the Bold and Green Lantern the animated series
  • Green Lantern: First Flight (animated movie)
  • Green Lantern: Emerald Nights (animated movie)
  • Wonder Woman (animated movie)
  • Batman: Under the Red Hood (animated movie)
  • Justice League: Throne of Atlantis (animated movie)
  • Justice League: Flashpoint Paradox (animated movie)
  • Justice League: Crisis on Two Earths (animated movie)
  • JLA: Trapped in Time (animated movie)
  • Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker (animated movie)
  • Superman/Shazam: The Return of Black Adam (animated movie)

I also started to watch The Dark Night Returns (animated movie) last night but my internet dropped and I couldn’t get it back so I am hoping to finish watching it tonight. As you can see I have not watched any live action but I do own all of Chris Nolan movies and I am planning on buying a digital version of Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice tonight.

Song Of The Day

 

Kinda appropriate, hey