Badger’s Wedding – The Date is Set

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So me and the Eagle have set a date. From now on I think that is what I will call him when I refer to him in my posts. He is a Ravenclaw after all and his favourite NRL rugby league team is the Manly Sea-Eagles so it is fitting. He goes for divisive football teams, he goes for the Collingwood in AFL. It is weird that he has chosen teams and got sorted into the house with bird emblems because he doesn’t like to fly and doesn’t like heights.

After sitting down and going over the calendar print outs for the next couple of years we come to agreement on this date.

Saturday 9th March 2019

We decided that we didn’t want to get married in Summer or Winter due to the either being too hot or cold though admittedly Brisbane Winters are not all that bad but you never know. So that left Autumn or Spring. We ruled out Autumn of next year because of time and money. We did consider the last couple of months of November because I wanted my one of my nieces, who is born in the first week of November, to be older as she is a Junior Bridesmaid and I wanted her to be a little older when we got married.

So that left 2019 as being the year. April and May are just a little busy due to birthdays and wedding anniversaries already so that left March and Spring. We did consider September but with the lead up to Christmas and another batch of birthdays in October and November, March seemed to be a best option.

Now that we have timeline to work to we or should I say I can start planning. The Eagle has left it all on my shoulders as he believes that the only things he needs to do is ask and then show up. I have been offered help and I have already nailed down most of the wedding party and decided on colours and themes and such. The colours are classic black and white with splashes of red with a bit of a superhero theme as I am Harley and the Eagle is my Joker. The men in the wedding party will all be wearing superhero themed ties with the Eagle wearing a Joker one.

Wedding Ties

We are looking towards having a backyard reception. My eldest brother has an acre lot and we will most likely have the reception there with the ceremony possibly at a local park that has a gazebo and waterfall. I am trying to do with on a strict budget as neither of us have much money.

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A Badger’s Idea

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I have mentioned before that I like to do written roleplay and in particular Harry Potter roleplay. I was a member of a site for a many years that I eventually was a mod on before it was shut down and I have been in and out sites since even running my own for a while. I was a member of site at the end of last year beginning of this but sort of lost interest mainly because I believed that the site didn’t have balance, this I believe is my anxiety speaking, and since then I have done numerous searches for a new site to play on and have found that most sites have the same issue or there is an element in the plot that I don’t like or think is feasible even though in most cases it is an AU site.

They all seem to be weighted towards the dark side of the force, to borrow a Star Wars phrase, and it bothers me greatly. Look, I see the allure in playing the dark-wizard but if you give the them an extra power or just power all together you have to give the opposition an opposing power or something they can use to fight back. You can’t just have a site full of Death Eaters and no Order or Order like group to fight back with. It’s no fun trying to play a hero or just a neutral character when the scale is in heavily in favour of the dark or dark sympathetic, especially when you feel like you have to be secretive all the time.

So I have been trying to think of a plotline that I can start my own site with and I think I have it but I really need feedback on it and also assistance. I was trying to find a website when I can voice such a thing but had no luck and had put something up in OOC section of one of the sites that I am a member of but I have had no responses so I thought that I might put it up here and see if I get a nibble.

 

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The missing 20.

 

It is a little known tale that came from the second war. One month after the death of Albus Dumbledore 20 persons with magic in their blood disappeared. Differing in age, from the age of 15 and up, blood-status, and sex vanished without a trace within a span of a day. All disappearances were reported to the Ministry but with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named and his Death Eaters on the verge of taking of the Ministry of Magic the missing were soon forgotten and were assumed either dead or had left the country.

 

June 2017, 20 years later the 20 reappear. 10 appear in Glastonbury the other 10 in Seven Dials, London. They all appear to have not aged but are aware that they have.

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Now it is a work in progress as I want there to be a reason for their disappearance, but maybe that can be a part of the plot, and I also want them to have obtained something while they were away though I don’t necessarily want it to be the same thing though whatever it will be will either fall on the dark or light side. Where they arrived will define what side of the line are aligned with as I see Glastonbury as the light and Seven Dials as the dark though I guess this could change if a different location suits better.

So if there are any role players out there and think this a good idea and would like to assist I will be mighty grateful.

 

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Badger’s Big News

So the bf is no longer the bf any longer he is now the fiancé. Being the un-romantic kind he took me and one of my nieces to a local mall told me I had a budget and to choose a ring. I found one, he bought it and I am now an engaged badger. 


 

So I guess you can say that I have added a little more anxiety to the picture as I know have a wedding to arrange though when that will be I have no idea. If I had the money I would want as soon as possible but money is going to be the problem. I have debt on top of debt at the moment and the fiancé no longer has a job as he quit it due to personality clashes and the stress that the job had been bringing him. He also has no idea what he wants to do next and knowing him as I do he will take his time and be lazy about it too.

 

I guess the other big news is that my sister no longer lives with me. After another stint in hospital she has been released and has got a place of her own or she may be living with people she knows. We are not sure which one as she hasn’t really told us anything. She took her dog and then returned him and says that she is going to collect her stuff. She has also broken into the house twice.

 

My mother is no longer speaking to my youngest brother due to his wife in one of her fights where her opponent has no idea that they are fighting. Though admittedly he is not making an effort to talk to her so maybe he is more aware than we know. He usually calls her once a week and hasn’t since the dispute occurred. She though does have a good reason for her anger at my brother and sister-in-law.

 

State of Origin starts tonight and for the first time in a long time it seems that I will have to watch the match. I really don’t want to watch as I was going to start my yearly watch of Cowboy Bebop tonight but the fiancé is coming over to watch the match as he is unable to as he can’t get a signal where he is at the moment. He really needs to move in and with my sister gone he can though I guess with him being unemployed….

 

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Decisive Badger

I have many faults, I will never ever say that I am perfect because in my mind perfection equals normality and I would never ever want to be called normal. So I cannot be called perfect though I do have perfectionist streak at times, but that is the Virgo in me. I can be lazy and procrastinate a lot and I am absolutely terrible when it comes to money and making decisions when it comes to money. I am probably more selfish than I would like to be also and I am struggling with this quite a bit at the moment but this is probably my anxiety, which I guess is another reason why I am not perfect/normal.

One thing that I am and that has been pointed out and something that I am kind of proud of is that I am decisive. If I say that I am going to do something I will do it though I will think on it for a while before I act. Two things I did over the weekend prove this.

I have stated that I wanted to get a Wonder Woman tattoo and wanted to do it before the movie comes out. I decided this a couple of months after getting my Harley Quinn diamonds tattoo because I did debate on getting a Joker J tattoo. I decided to go with a more feminist bent instead. So I now I had Harley on left wrist/forearm and Wonder Woman on my right. My good and bad sides. I guess this is the selfish decision that I made over the weekend.

 

 

The second one is something that is a little selfish I guess because it was for me but it was also for my family and will kick off, hopefully, the renovation of the house for its possible sale. I got my room painted. It was something that I had considered for over a year and me and the bf had gone to Bunnings (a hardware chain here in Australia) a couple of time and got colour swatches. I made a decision to do it two weekends ago and after consultation with family members a colour was decided upon.

We got the paint and other utensils to complete the job on Friday with the intent on doing it over the weekend as it was a long one due to Labour Day. Saturday I was in a lazy mood so me and the bf decided on Sunday as the day with touch ups on Monday if required. Sunday I cleared out the room before my bf arrived as he told me to have it done bright an early and then turned up later than I thought he would, though that is quite typical because as my mother said there was work to be done so naturally he was lazy. He helped move the items of furniture that needed to be moved out and moved the bed to the middle of the room. It was the only piece of furniture that could not be moved.

Myself and he then painted the room with assistance from my 9 year old niece and my sister’s sometime boyfriend. My niece helped as way of distracting her as her guinea pig died the night before and the sometimes boyfriend offered and said that he knew what he was doing though probably didn’t or was too distracted by my sister. He was planning on using the remainder of the paint to do my sisters room though to do that she will need to clean it and that it a challenge in itself.

My room though looks great and I am pleased with the outcome though we will still need to paint the trims and doors as they are still the original creamy colour they were before and that colour really doesn’t work well with the new colour of the walls.

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Badger, It’s Been A While

I feel like breaking into song and singing a little Staind at the moment but this is not really the time or even the place. I doubt that anyone would appreciate me breaking into song. I am not Kevin Smith after all (he always sings it when he says the phrase).

Still having inspiration and concentration issues. Started seeing my psychologist again and she has suggested that I defer on the study until I can calm done. Have done a little bit of travelling over the last month in which the thought of flying really started stressing me out which has never happened before as I have been mentioned in a previous post that I love flying. Saw my father for the first time in 27 years while on said travel which was really emotional as he is not a well man (suffers from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s). The second lot of travel took me up to a cyclone affected area of North Queensland to do a little recovery work where strangely my anxiety decided to play nice for all but one day and that was due to my dislike of confrontation. We also had a really good EAP (Employee Assistance Program) rep available.

Sister was in hospital again but is now out and being a pain in ass. She wants my bed because I have a better mattress and naturally I don’t want to give it up because it is my bed. Booked a cruise for next year for my bf’s 50th. Since he doesn’t like boats it is going to be interesting. Family are planning on selling the family home due to the fact that my stepfather and my mother have split. Might finally get the money that he owes me.

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Want to get a semicolon tattoo either behind my one of my ears or on the same wrist as my Harley’s Diamonds tattoo. Also want get a Wonder Woman tattoo on the opposing wrist before the movie comes out. BTW the trailers are awesome and so it the Justice League ones. Speaking of DC properties been reading a lot of comic books lately due to the travel and a podcast that I listen to. If you like DC comics and don’t mind long podcasts and I mean 10 to 12 hour long podcasts listen to Weird Science DC. They are really insightful and review every DC related comic weekly. They also treat their listeners well are very funny.

Though this is my first in while on this blog I have put up a few posts on my review blog in which I have put up reviews for the following:

Ready Player One (Book)

Riverdale (TV)

Assassination Classroom (Anime)

Cowboy Bebop (Anime)

Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movie)

Logan (Movie)

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Intimidated Badger

 

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Happy New Year everyone and I hope everyone had  a great holiday season. I am sorry that I have not posted anything recently and I would like to say to that I have just been really busy but to be honest and I do try to  be as honest as possible, I mean that is one of the qualities us badgers are known for, but I have been a little lazy and also I have been having issues with inspiration.

 

My creative side has kind of dried up of late and I am also having trouble focusing on what I am supposed to be focusing on and even on stuff that I want to be doing like writing in general. I am blaming the heat partially because I, like my Huffflepup, don’t like the sun and it don’t like me. I will also blame my anxiety issues because well that will probably play a factor cause it does make me distracted to a point.

 

Last but not least is the fact that as I have mentioned I am doing some studying at the moment and the last subject that I did we had to do a role play in which we had to act out a meeting we arranged and then do the minutes for and have it recorded and added as part of our assessment. Now with my anxiety issues and my issues with nervousness and public speaking I found this incredibly intimidating and nerve racking and it drained me. We then went into the next topic which also I find intimidating so much so that I have not even started doing it (I should be doing it now) and it is due next week.

 

The subject it Project Management and I actually have an interest in project work though admittedly managing a project has no interest to me what so ever. I like the idea of working on a team with a particular goal in mind and being there from start to finish but actually managing other people and giving instructions just intimidates me.

 

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Virgo Badger

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I am a Virgo and we can get quite precise and analytical and are known to be perfectionist. Now I am not that way all the time but when I am it annoys me to no end. At the moment I am on a bit of an organisational binge or I will be when I find the time. That time will be Friday because I have asked for the day off to complete this task. I just hope that I actually fulfil it cause I have a habit of making plans and not following through. Procrastination is another trait of the Virgo.

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My object of annoyance that I need to organise, because it is driving me nuts, is my wardrobe and to a lesser extent the drawers in my bedroom. I guess you could say anything that has to do with clothes is driving me crazy because it is a mess and I can’t find anything. The last two weeks I have been researching the best ways to organise my wardrobe and what I will need to do and get because but that is what Virgos do. We prepare.

I guess I could be making a mountain out of a molehill, I mean Virgos are known to over-analyse and I do have a tendency to over think things, that comes with the anxiety I believe, but in this case I might not be. I was grocery with my BF and I stopped in the cleaning/storage section where there were they kept the storage options like boxes, bins, space bags and such. He looked at me and said that it was I needed to get fix up my wardrobe. If he is telling me that I need to clean up my wardrobe it can’t just be only me.

I also tend to bite off more than I can chew. With work, BF and study I already have a full plate but I am also considering starting up another Harry Potter role play site. Yeah, I know I joined a site not that long ago and though the people are super nice I am not role playing with anyone at the moment. I have sort of picked out a title but it is just a story line that I am having issues with. I mean not everyone is going to play to the story line but it is always good to have one in background. I don’t want to go with the one that I used last time because it too rigid but I don’t want to seem to be copying someone else either.

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A Badger’s Decision

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Okay so my anxiety has gotten worse so much so that I had to leave and go home on Friday of last week because I just could not focus on anything. I had to explain the feeling to my boss because he has never had the feeling before. We broke it down to having approx 10 coffees in a short amount of time.  

 

I have put it down to my medication as I had been given a generic form of my medication and it was making me wired. I went to get my normal medication but my chemist had stopped getting it and had only the one that using and another that was way more expensive. I am still taking the medication but I am making sure that I eat before taking it as the anxiety isn’t as bad if I eat first.

Since it has been two weeks since my birthday I have come to the conclusion that it probably wasn’t that entirely that is the source of my current lapse. I am thinking that is the decisions that I have made that might be a contributing factor. That being my decision to move in with my bf, sister and her bf and also to return to study. I have a real bad habit of making decisions on the spur of the moment and they figuring out the consequences later on. That last time this happened I had got together with my bf, decided to study and also agreed to go overseas. Two out of three were good decisions the third one I never finished.

Another decision I made was to get back into Harry Potter written role play. I have been wanting to for a while it was just trying to find the right site and I think I found it though it is not exactly what I was looking for. I have only played in and around the Voldemort/Harry timeline and up to 10-20 years after the books were set and also in a PG kind of atmosphere. This time around is set in 2053 and it definitely a Adults website so much so that they have included a comfortability form to complete.

The staff and members are really friendly and I joined using the son of a character that I have had for a while. The good thing with this site is that they don’t mind you having multiple characters and to a certain extent they even encourage it so in the future I might bring in other characters that I have created. I just have to work on how they fit into the story being played out.

The site is called The Next Incantation and if you have any interest in role play I would love to see you there I am playing a character called Mack Wilde there.

The other thing that I have done recently is get back into Anime. Because of my DC binge I had stopped watching anime altogether but started up again over the weekend. I decided to re-watch Fairy Tail starting with the Phantom Lord arc and am currently on the Oración Seis arc. Though I love this show and love Erza and Jellal as a couple for some reason I don’t enjoy the arc’s where Jellal is prominent like this one and the previous Tower of Heaven Arc. Maybe it is because I don’t like seeing Erza vulnerable or her past and Jellal always brings that out in her.

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The Badger’s Oscar

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So I had a significant birthday and though I was alright with turning this particular age earlier in the year. The week or so before the big day I had major anxiety so much so that I had to go on leave earlier than planned. I was going to go on leave the Friday before my birthday and I ended up going two days earlier.

 

This week is my first week back and though my anxiety was present during my time off it has flared up mightily. Maybe because of decisions made during leave like going and doing some extra study and trying to find a place to rent with my bf, sister and her bf. Yes, I know this is a little on the crazy side and both my bf and I realise this but it is the only way that we are going to be able to afford to move in together and my step-father has been getting a little more verbally abusive towards me of late and it can’t be good for my mental health.

 

The problem is my sister is getting rather demanding. She has given specifications on where we have to live and she is not really taking in consideration anyone else’s need but her own. It has to be in one particular suburb so she can be closer to her kids. I understand that but her other housemates will have requirements as well. I need to have public transport close by and her bf will need a big enough garage or shed to work out of. Luckily my bf is quite easy but then he is probably going to have the biggest issue with living with her especially if she goes off the rails.

 

I went away with the bf over the weekend and though the trip was good I now am feeling majorly tired. I am a reasonably good sleeper so much so that I can fall asleep in most places and though I can fall asleep it is not guaranteed that I will stay asleep or sleep well. The place that we stayed at I did not sleep well especially the second night. I kept on dreaming of my return to work and every time I had a major headache and I could feel the pain of the headache while I was asleep. I also didn’t sleep well the night before going to work. That I think was anxiety.

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So despite my anxiety in relation to the birthday it was a really good day and I got some really good gifts and had a really good party. My Aunt, Uncle and Grandmother came up from Melbourne and despite a friend of the family getting drunk, which is no surprise because she is an alcoholic and our boarder trying to get me drunk I was a good night with good food and good people.

 

My best gift is the one I got from my boyfriend is the statuette form of the Joker/Harley Cover and I call it my Oscar because of the shape and feel and maybe even the size.

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Hufflepup

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My DC binge has come to an end, sort of. I am still reading the comics but I have finished the animated series now and Animelab has finally released the last of the dubbed Fairy Tail so I am watching that instead, maybe twice depending on when I next see my niece who likes to watch the show as well. I also getting an urge to binge Glee but I blame my iPod for that. My anxiety is still playing up but I am doing PT sessions through work and am hoping that they will help with that.

The topic for this post is actually my dog which I mentioned in my first post. She is a Ruby Cavalier King Charles Spaniel named Lady Ariel but she has tons of nicknames which I will go through later. My mother named her as my mother has a thing for naming our pets after Disney characters so she became Lady after the Cocker Spaniel from Lady and the Tramp and Ariel after the Little Mermaid. My mother owns a Ruby Dachshund named Winni-Pooh Schnitzel.

I bought Lady, though I was not there to pick her up. She was born in Gatton in December of 2012 but she and her litter brothers and sisters were moved to Gailes in late January due to flood waters due to Tropical Cyclone Oswald. I was in Bundaberg at the time helping with Community Recovery due to the same Cyclone. It had been a pretty bad day and the news of her purchase definitely brightened my day.

She was the biggest of the litter and is larger than most Cavies that we know of. We actually joke that she is a mutant. She is kindest natured and sweetest dog that we have ever owned. She is not a barker so is not a good guard dog. Actually we tend to think that if we ever get robbed she would probably let them and wants pats from them. We have Winni and my sister’s dog, Steve (yes, that is his name) for guard duty anyway.

She loves a good scratch and rub but it has to be when she wants it and she thinks she is royalty. I truly believe that she understands what we say and I have regular conversations with her. She is not much of an outdoors dog but loves a good walk and/or car ride. She hates other animals, other than the ones she knows and tolerates those that visit the house.

She loves food and especially a good bone. I believe that if she was human she would either be a chef or a food critic. She enjoys sleeping and snores like a trooper. Actually Snorlax (after the Pokemon) is actually one of her nicknames. Others are Ladybug, Buggy, Chewy (after Chewbacca because of her fur), Donatella, Princess (she loves bling of any kind) and lately I have been calling her Chook or Chooky but I have been calling all my nieces, nephews and dogs that lately and of course Hufflepup.

I am not just saying that either because I am a Hufflepuff. There is a sorting quiz available that lets you sort your pets. I actually sorted all three dogs and they all came up in different houses and all three houses actually suit them according to the description given. Lady is a Hufflepuff, Winni is a Gryffindor and Steve is a Slytherin.

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She absolutely hates the heat and that is the reason why we have to get her groomed. She actually has two cooling mats to lie on when the weather heats up. She is strange in that likes having baths and going to the vet. She has made several trips to the vet. She has have her declaws removed and she dislocated her knee and had to have an operation to fix it. Luckily she is insured and so is Winni, who hates the vet and is not fond of baths.  She occasionally watches television and she is a DC fan like me but is more of a Superman fan than I am.

In my opinion there is not better dog than my Lady and I wouldn’t change her for the world.

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