Badger, It’s Been A While

I feel like breaking into song and singing a little Staind at the moment but this is not really the time or even the place. I doubt that anyone would appreciate me breaking into song. I am not Kevin Smith after all (he always sings it when he says the phrase).

Still having inspiration and concentration issues. Started seeing my psychologist again and she has suggested that I defer on the study until I can calm done. Have done a little bit of travelling over the last month in which the thought of flying really started stressing me out which has never happened before as I have been mentioned in a previous post that I love flying. Saw my father for the first time in 27 years while on said travel which was really emotional as he is not a well man (suffers from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s). The second lot of travel took me up to a cyclone affected area of North Queensland to do a little recovery work where strangely my anxiety decided to play nice for all but one day and that was due to my dislike of confrontation. We also had a really good EAP (Employee Assistance Program) rep available.

Sister was in hospital again but is now out and being a pain in ass. She wants my bed because I have a better mattress and naturally I don’t want to give it up because it is my bed. Booked a cruise for next year for my bf’s 50th. Since he doesn’t like boats it is going to be interesting. Family are planning on selling the family home due to the fact that my stepfather and my mother have split. Might finally get the money that he owes me.

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Want to get a semicolon tattoo either behind my one of my ears or on the same wrist as my Harley’s Diamonds tattoo. Also want get a Wonder Woman tattoo on the opposing wrist before the movie comes out. BTW the trailers are awesome and so it the Justice League ones. Speaking of DC properties been reading a lot of comic books lately due to the travel and a podcast that I listen to. If you like DC comics and don’t mind long podcasts and I mean 10 to 12 hour long podcasts listen to Weird Science DC. They are really insightful and review every DC related comic weekly. They also treat their listeners well are very funny.

Though this is my first in while on this blog I have put up a few posts on my review blog in which I have put up reviews for the following:

Ready Player One (Book)

Riverdale (TV)

Assassination Classroom (Anime)

Cowboy Bebop (Anime)

Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movie)

Logan (Movie)

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A Badger’s Decision

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Okay so my anxiety has gotten worse so much so that I had to leave and go home on Friday of last week because I just could not focus on anything. I had to explain the feeling to my boss because he has never had the feeling before. We broke it down to having approx 10 coffees in a short amount of time.  

 

I have put it down to my medication as I had been given a generic form of my medication and it was making me wired. I went to get my normal medication but my chemist had stopped getting it and had only the one that using and another that was way more expensive. I am still taking the medication but I am making sure that I eat before taking it as the anxiety isn’t as bad if I eat first.

Since it has been two weeks since my birthday I have come to the conclusion that it probably wasn’t that entirely that is the source of my current lapse. I am thinking that is the decisions that I have made that might be a contributing factor. That being my decision to move in with my bf, sister and her bf and also to return to study. I have a real bad habit of making decisions on the spur of the moment and they figuring out the consequences later on. That last time this happened I had got together with my bf, decided to study and also agreed to go overseas. Two out of three were good decisions the third one I never finished.

Another decision I made was to get back into Harry Potter written role play. I have been wanting to for a while it was just trying to find the right site and I think I found it though it is not exactly what I was looking for. I have only played in and around the Voldemort/Harry timeline and up to 10-20 years after the books were set and also in a PG kind of atmosphere. This time around is set in 2053 and it definitely a Adults website so much so that they have included a comfortability form to complete.

The staff and members are really friendly and I joined using the son of a character that I have had for a while. The good thing with this site is that they don’t mind you having multiple characters and to a certain extent they even encourage it so in the future I might bring in other characters that I have created. I just have to work on how they fit into the story being played out.

The site is called The Next Incantation and if you have any interest in role play I would love to see you there I am playing a character called Mack Wilde there.

The other thing that I have done recently is get back into Anime. Because of my DC binge I had stopped watching anime altogether but started up again over the weekend. I decided to re-watch Fairy Tail starting with the Phantom Lord arc and am currently on the Oración Seis arc. Though I love this show and love Erza and Jellal as a couple for some reason I don’t enjoy the arc’s where Jellal is prominent like this one and the previous Tower of Heaven Arc. Maybe it is because I don’t like seeing Erza vulnerable or her past and Jellal always brings that out in her.

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Traumatic Badger

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I have already spoken about my accident in another post and I got another doctor’s opinion in regards to it and his diagnosis was the same as my regular doc so pretty much I have to live with having a constant headache and accompanying neck pain. He did though recommend that I get my thyroid checked and have a sleep test done because I am also constantly tired though I sleeping well. He also suggested that I suffered from or am still suffering from PTSD due to the accident.

I never once thought this but now that he outlined it is probably correct. I still get nervous when a car I am in and I am a front seat passenger speeds up or when they go through a yellow light, especially when they had time to stop. I don’t like having trucks or bigger cars close beside me either. None of these were a contribution to my accident but my anxiety levels rise in these occasions.

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It is that time of year again, it is State of Origin time and as I mentioned in a previous post I no longer watch the spectacle that is Mate vs Mate, State vs State. I used to love it look forward to it and my stop watching it has nothing to do with the fact that the team that I go for, The NSW Blues, have only won the series once in the last 10 years. My not watching any longer has to with an ex-boyfriend and one of the best players for the Queensland Maroons, Jonathan Thurston.  

Straight off the bat my ex was a drinker with a temper and was extremely jealous. There was nothing he liked better than starting a fight and he openly boasted about the fights that he had been in. His drink of choice was rum and rum and a temper and jealousy do no mix well at all. I had gone over to his house to watch the game which is on a Wednesday night and was naturally going to stay the night there as he lived on the other side of town. His roommate, his girlfriend and another friend were also there.

My ex spent most of the game in the backyard drinking with the friend and his roommate, the girlfriend and I watched the game. They would pop in every now and again to check the score or when something exciting happened. Every time he would pop in he would take pot shots at Jonathan Thurston because he was getting a lot of attention in the media at the time, and he still is to a certain extent, mainly because he is a great player and is pretty consistent. He had not watched the game and I was getting annoyed with him because of the remarks he was making so despite going for the opposition I defended him.

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My defence of this Queenslander and the fact that I had seen him at the airport once when I had gone to Sydney for a Harry Potter release party and had mentioned it to him when I got off the plane had my ex putting 2 and 2 together and coming up with 1000. He claimed that I was in love with him. I was of course not, I was actually not in the least attracted to him in any shape or form and I think at the time said he looked like a monkey (I did not mean that in a racist manner at all).

He kept taking his pot shots at me and Jonathan Thurston and I kept on defending him with some assistance from the roommate and the gf. When the game finished, the Blues won btw, I went to bed. The ex followed and continued to take pot shots and called me a liar. I got angrier and angrier and threatened to punch him, he goaded me and I did end up punching him in the face. Unfortunately I had a silver with blue topaz ring on which had sharp corners, when I connected the ring scratched him and he got angrier and started beating my head against the headboard.

It was too late to go home that night and he took me to the bus stop the next morning for work and as I had training that day and I promised him that I would go over to his place the next day which was Friday for the weekend. I was a wreck and on Friday morning he kept calling me and calling me and eventually a colleague of my took me aside into one of the conference rooms. I told her what happened and she called in the boss they took photos of the bruises with my phone and sent me home. I broke my promise, which he didn’t like cause I don’t like breaking promises and he knew that, I considered my situation and how our relationship had been. Hell, even his sister-in-law had offered to assist in getting me away from him at once stage. On Monday I called him and broke it off. I did not ever want to put myself in the that position again over something as stupid as a football player.

 

So I know how a new tradition at Origin time I watch anime and not just any anime my favourite anime of all time.   Cowboy Bebop

 

 

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Binging Badger

Alrighty let’s get back into this. Since I last posted I have had a bit of time off in which I did absolutely nothing but was hoping to at least go down to Melbourne to visit my family there. Didn’t happen but it gave me a chance, I guess, to binge watch a couple of shows, mainly anime.

First off I wouldn’t call myself a binge-watcher but my BF has pointed out that I have been known to watch multiple episodes of television of the one show in order. However these shows are usually shows that I have already watched before and I would count it more as a re-watch than an initial binge watch and I am really only watching the show as a intro for my BF as he had not watched it before. Actually the more that I think out it I probably binge watch more than I think that I have without realising that I have been doing it.

 

Well any who what I have binged watched over this most recent break:

 

· Mr Robot – iTunes – Wonderful show and I adore Christian Slater so that made it even better.

· Anti-Magic Academy – Animelab – Pretty good

· Sunday Without God – Animelab – pretty good

· Beyond the Boundary – Netflix – A pretty good anime

· Toradora! – Netflix – Started it a while ago and then got distracted so I returned to it and watched most of it but still haven’t completed it. Pretty good anime.

· Fairy Tail – Animelab – Duh, watched the newly released dubbed episodes.

· The Flash – combination of iTunes and Netflix – re-watching season 1 with my niece and we have just started season 2. Not sure what I am going to do with the crossover episode with Arrow as I refuse to let her watch Arrow, she is only 8 after all and ever Flash can be a little too mature for her though she has watched MA rated stuff before.

 

I have also started watching Merlin and have given The 100 a go which I might pick up. Also watched the first episode/s of the Shannara Chronicles last night which I did enjoy. I might also re-watch Daredevil in preparation for the new season. Of course this all hinges on when I get my internet back at home as our modem decided to die over the weekend. I am totally relying on Wi-Fi hotspots and have also occasionally using my mobile in the same capacity.

 

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Spooky Badger

Since I am not sure if I will be posting again before Halloween on Saturday I thought I would use this post to celebrate the holiday and spooky things.

In Australia Halloween isn’t really celebrated though admittedly it is growing in popularity. I do remember however when growing up in Melbourne that we did go Trick or Treating but when we moved to Sydney it wasn’t a done thing. Now I live in Brisbane and we have never had kids come to our door asking for treats though we always have something set out just in case.

This year I will attending at Halloween party thrown by my younger brother. It looks like it is going to be a big do, all up. They just bought the house earlier this year so it is also a house warming party as such. I will probably just wear my Harry Potter robes and carry one of the wands that I own as a costume though it is not compulsory to wear a costume.

I am not a fan of spooky/horror movies at all I have seen a couple in my life time which I have willingly and unwillingly watched. Strangely enough I do like to read about them on Wikipedia and read reviews for them as well. I have probably seem more anime and TV with horror themes than actual movies. Some of the anime that I have watched in full or seen episodes off just as a test to see if I will watch the whole thing are:

Black Blood Brothers

Ghost Hound

Ghost Hunt

Hellsing

High School of the Dead – Watched most of it but didn’t like it all that much due to the women all having big boobs

Paranoia Agent

Blue Exorcist – Both the series and the movie

Blood: the Last Vampire and Blood+

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Tokyo Ghoul – I have watched a couple of eps of this and might go back to it

Deadman Wonderland – I have watched a couple of eps of this and might go back to it

Future Diary – I have watched a couple of eps of this and might go back to it

Supernatural: The Anime Series

With that last one I am I guess I should include Supernatural the TV show as one of the horror related programs that I have watched. I am up to date with the show though the most recent episode I haven’t seen yet as it has not aired here and won’t until Monday. I like the show and own the whole series on iTunes and have a version all the Pop Vinyl characters. Sam and Dean guard my desk at work along with Darryl Dixon from the Walking Dead, which I will get to later. I also have Castiel, Crowley and Charlie at home. I also listen to a re-watch podcast for them that I should have mentioned yesterday but forgot. It is called Supernatural: The Road So far and is hosted by two girls Sam and Malik though Sam used to host with a guy named Matt who had to leave though he comes and hosts every now and again. They have a great Facebook group as well.


Now The Walking Dead… Look I am really not that into zombies, though I do love iZombie which I guess we can add in a way to the list but that has a lot little more humour in it than Supernatural and definitely more than The Walking Dead. I have not seen all of the show. I got through season 4 and then lost interest but at one stage, especially in the first couple of seasons I was really into it and remember having this aha moment after Shane died in relation to the disease but sort of forgot about it. Might have to re-watch the first two seasons again to see if I can get that moment back and work on a proper theory. I just need to find the time…

Other horror themed shows that I have watched in full or not are:

Constantine

Grimm

The X-Files

Twin Peaks

Fringe

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Radical Badger

Instead  my Otaku Badger post I mentioned that my favourite anime of all time is Cowboy Bebop and today I thought I would talk a little bit about this anime in particular because I am channelling Ed a little from the show a little today with maybe a little bit of Asura the kishin from Soul Eater thrown in. Basically my anxiety is playing up big time due to work issues and the possibility that I may put in the middle of word war between two of my colleagues. Also my computer at home is not working and I didn’t walk the dogs today because I woke up late and that means I broke a promise to them, not that they would understand that but still I feel bad.

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Now Cowboy Bebop is set in the future, 2071 to be exact, space travel is possible and most of humanity no longer lives on earth as it has become uninhabitable due to a hyperspace gate blow up. We follow Jet Black, a former cop, and Spike Spiegel, a former crime syndicate member, as they travel on a former space trawler called the Bebop. They are bounty hunters or cowboys, as they are nicknamed, as they eke out a living. Along the way they acquire a dog, a Welsh Corgi which they call Ein, a former bounty head called Faye who was cryogenically frozen who is trying to find out who she is because has very little memories and is also a con woman, problem gambler and is very vain and selfish.

Then there is Ed. Ed is actually a girl who has given herself the name Edward Wang Hwe Pepel Cybulski 4th. She is a whiz kid and hacker and is known on earth as Radical Edward. The crew come into contact with her when they chase a large bounty as someone has been making large doodles into the earth and it is believed that someone, they think Ed, has hacked a satellite to do this. She hadn’t but Faye promises her that if she helps them find who did do it then they will let her come with them. Faye of course never meant to keep her promise but Ed hacks them and come on their adventures until she with Ein decides to leave near the end of the series.

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Ed is a strange kid who refers to herself in the third person, very rarely walks, uses her feet for unusual tasks such as typing and clapping and what I am like today easily distracted. She is also the one that bring the humor to the show. She is also one of the most enjoyable parts of the show in my opinion.

I might talk a little bit about the show in a later post and go over some of the other characters.

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Badgermole

Following on from my post yesterday I thought I would talk about another fandom that I was involved in for a little while which was Avatar: The Last Airbender. In Australia it was call Avatar: The Legend of Aang. The show ran on Nickelodeon and the ABC but I mainly saw it on Nick. It was also another show that I would consider to be a gateway show into my current love of anime as though an American cartoon the animation was very anime like as well as locations and fighting styles.

It is another one of those shame on you shows if you have never seen or even heard about. I don’t remember the date or anything of when I first saw the show but I do remember the episode. My older brother and his family had come over for a visit and we changed the channel so the kids could watch cartoons while we all talked. We put it on Nick for them and though I don’t think the kids were all that interested I was. It was the second episode of the second season “The Cave of Two Lovers”. I think from then on I found the first season on iTunes and the rest is history.

I found a podcast called “From the Spirit World” and started listening to that where they analysed episodes and also compared it to other entities like Harry Potter. They also had a website called Dongbu Feng which I joined and was a member of. Eventually I stopped listening to them as I believed that took it a little too seriously and was over analysing the show to the point where the podcast was not really fun to listen to anymore.

If you have never seen the show then I will give you a little background. The show is set it a fiction earth like planet where the population is broken up into different groups. There is the Earth Kingdom, The Water Tribes, The Fire Nation and the Air Nomads and certain people within each group are able to bend and element within their group and then one person of all is called the Avatar and they are able to bend all the elements and is reincarnated into one of the four groups after they die and is able to access their past lives through meditation.

In the show we follow Aang who is a 12 year old Airbender who is the current Avatar. He went missing after finding out he was the Avatar. He and his pet sky bison, Appa, were placed in suspended animation for 100 years in an iceberg. During this time the Fire Nation started a war and wiped out all the Air Nomads, which makes Aang the Last Airbender. He then has to learn all the elements by the Summer Solstice so that he can beat Fire Lord Ozai and bring balance to the world.

The world is made of many interesting animals which are hybrids of our own including the badgermoles. The badgermoles are said to be the first earth benders and were the ones to teach humans the art. They were also who taught Toph, a blind earthbender who ends up teaching Aang earthbending. Below is song about badgermoles which appears in the episode “The Cave of Two Lovers”.

The series went for three seasons which were called books starting with Water then Earth and then Fire, as this is the way that Aang had to learn each ability. There then was a sequel which followed the next Avatar called Korra who is a Waterbender. She had 4 seasons starting with Air then Spirits then Change then Balance.

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Franken Badger

I am not the most focused today so if I ramble or go off topic, not that I really know what topic I am on today, it is because I have forgotten to take my medication for the last two days. Yesterday it most likely because of the dentist appointment this morning it more because I got distracted with other things and by other things I mean iTunes and my computer in general.

I sort kinda feel like Franken Stein from one of my favourite animes, Soul Eater, which I have been re-watching over the last couple of weeks in between bouts of simulcast shows on Animelab, Doctor Who, The Flash and Arrow and general DC/WB animated TV and movies. I think I will go into my love of DC in another post though.

Now back to Franken and Soul Eater in general. If you are a fan of anime and haven’t seen Soul Eater than shame on you as it is an excellent show except for maybe the end, but that is my opinion and I tend to think most anime series endings are not very good. The manga series does it better I believe but I haven’t read it all, I started too but because it sticks to the manga for the first half of the series and then deviates I got a little bored.

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Well any who back to the show. What makes this one unique, not just because of the world itself but the design. It is very Tim Burtonish with a colour scheme of mainly black, white and red. It is set in alternative earth where Franken Stein is a teacher and mad scientist working for the school in Death City, Nevada. The school he works for is the Death Weapon Meister Academy (DWMA). The school is for training humans that are able to turn into weapons and those that can wield them, who are called Meisters. It is run by the Grim Reaper.

Stein, which is what he is mainly called in the show, is overcome by the madness of the main antagonist of the show, a being called a kishin, which is able to transmit it’s madness all around the world. Stein is not the most stable of characters to begin with in general due to his love of dissecting things and near the end it overcomes him and he becomes erratic, twitchy and manic. That is kind of how I feel today.

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Otaku Badger?

Yes, I know Otaku is a Japanese term for geek and essentially it means I and so I a naming this post the same as my previous post but I like to think that Otaku is a little more selective than your run of the mill geek as it their likes are more related to their own cultural fandoms rather than a wider pop culture they admittedly they do intermingle.

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I wouldn’t even say that I am full on Otaku either but I do enjoy anime a lot and I have read some manga. I mentioned in my last post that it was my involvement in Godrics Hollow that lead me to my current enjoyment of anime. Of course I had watched anime before when I was young not realising that it was anime at the time. You know titles like Astro Boy, Kimba the White Lion and Voltron, before or after school television on the ABC when I was growing up.

Godrics Hollow had a member who used an anime character as her character image for her avatar and signature and I was interested in where it was from so I asked her. It was Julia from Cowboy Bebop. She recommended the show thinking that I would like it. Like it I did and Cowboy Bebop is probably my favourite anime of all time.

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From then I would the shelves at the closest Borders to find and buy anime. Streaming was not available in Australia at the time and I then found a DVD hire deliver service called Quickflix and would borrow titles from them and would buy the ones that I enjoyed and would watch again. I stopped using Quickflix but continued to buy titles I found interesting. I also got my niece into as well and it would our thing to do together. That leads me to our show at the moment….Fairy Tail

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I buy the DVD when they are released but we watch it through a streaming service here in Australia called Animelab which is run by one of the main distributors of anime in Australia, Madman. The service is free but you can pay for premium content, which I do. They offer anime in sub and dub versions and have most of Fairy Tail in the dubbed variety which is easier for my niece. It is simulcast as well which means a new episode a week so I am all caught up on the story though my niece isn’t.

I might go into a Fairy Tail and talk about other titles I enjoy at a later time and maybe make some recommendations but I think that that is all for now.

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