The Badger Favourite Things – Movies

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I have been thinking about this for a while now. Listing things that make me happy, think, laugh or cry or all of those things. They are positives when my depression or anxiety gets the better of me. They mean something to mean on some level. They may reflect who I am as person in some way.

I also like making lists so I thought that this would be a good thing as well and I thought I would start with movies because this has gone through a bit of change of late.

For the longest time my favourite movie was The Usual Suspects, probably one of the best pieces of work by Bryan Singer and Kevin Spacey but this opinion has changed dramatically. Don’t get me wrong I still think that it is a great movie but I don’t think I could ever watch it again. Primarily because of the conduct of both Mr Singer and Spacey in recent years. I know it is kind of ridiculous that my opinion has changed because of the actions of the director and one member of the cast but I can’t help it. It is just the way that I feel.

So I am going to list my favourite movies. I doubt that any of them could be considered the greatest movie ever made and some of them probably have seriously bad reviews and it will probably be animation heavy because I like animation a lot. They will have every have something that made me feel something in some way or spoke to me on some level.

Also I know what my new favourite movie is and I am going to leave that one to last and if you have read any of my previous posts or have read any of my reviews on my other blog you might be able to work it out. All other movies in this list are not going to be in order and that will probably be what happens in most of these kind of posts I make. I will know what my all-time favourite is but everything else can swap and change.

This list will show I am very much a modern person as they are all released within the last 25 years and all bar two of them I saw in theatre and the only reason that didn’t see them in theatre was because of timing or I found the movie after the fact. Also these movies made the list because I have watched them multiple times and have yet to lose interest in them and remember them all fondly.

Harry Potter and the Prisoner Azkaban – Alphonso Cuaron (2004)

Since I am a huge Harry Potter fan I thought I should get my favourite movie of the series out first. Now I know this one is a little divisive as a lot of fans dislike this one but for some reason it is my favourite. It might not have stuck as true to the books as the first two did but it got the right ones and told the story and made it feel magical to me unlike some of the ones that follow, especially Goble of Fire, which by the way is my favourite book, though Azkaban is my second favourite.

The Upside of Anger – Mike Binder (2005)

Now this is one that might not be known all that well as it is small movie that probably didn’t get a lot of attention but probably should have. The story follows a middle aged woman, Terry Wolfmeyer (Joan Allen) and mother of four girls who believes that her husband has run off to Sweden with his secretary. She forms a relationship with her neighbour Denny (Kevin Costner) who is a retired baseball player and a fellow alcoholic. The movie has a strong female narrative with each of the female characters having a clearly defined and all the performances are great and believable.

Inside Out – Pete Doctor (2015)

The first of 3 animated movies and strangely enough the three that I have are all done in different production styles. Inside Out is the computer generated one from Pixar (naturally). This one made me cry but I think all three of my animation choices did, well that I can remember. It is a wonderful exploration of emotion inside the head of a preteen girl and how every emotion is important even sadness.

Just Like Heaven – Mark Waters (2005)

I have mentioned this movie in relation to the music and also because of Mark Ruffalo but it is also a favourite of mine and if it is on in my house I will always sit and watch it. It is a beautiful movie about love, loss and fate and it has and will always make me cry. The story surrounds two lonely people who are brought together in a very unusual way, one of them is in a coma and her spirit haunts the other.

The Avengers – Joss Whedon (2012)

Well I am a geek and this is the first of two super-hero themed movies that I have included in this list. I personally think this is the best out the Marvel movies and it is why it was on top of my Marvel Movie list post which admittedly I will need to update but will wait until after Infinity War Part 2 comes out and I have caught up as I have yet to see Ant-Man and the Wasp and will probably not see Captain Marvel in theatre as I am not interested and neither is the Eagle, though this opinion might change, there is time after all.

Wonder Woman – Patty Jenkins (2017)

If I was going to have a Marvel movie on the list I had to have a DC one and I was naturally going to go with Wonder Woman. It is the only movie on the list that I actually went to the cinema twice to see, opening weekend with the Eagle in Gold Class and again a couple of weeks later as a girl’s night with my mother and nieces. Though admittedly it does lag a little in the end with the revelation of who Ares is it is still my favourite of the DC movies so far. Try to beat it Aquaman!!

The Lion King – Roger Allers and Rob Minkoff (1994)

This is my favourite Disney animated movie and the most original of them all, though that is under debate I guess with some comparing it to Kimba the White Lion, which I can see as I remember watching Kimba as a kid. Being Disney Animation it has a wonderful soundtrack with music by Tim Rice, Elton John and Hans Zimmer.

Empire Records – Allan Moyle (1995)

Another movie with a wonderful soundtrack but then how could it not considering that the movie is set in a record store. It is a wonderful cast with a young Renee Zellweger, Liv Tyler, Anthony LaPaglia, Robin Tunney and my favourite Rory Cochrane. This is also one of the movies that I did not see in cinema and found it later on.

Dogma – Kevin Smith (1999)

I will happily admit that I am fan of Kevin Smith though admittedly it more for his personality and his podcasts than his actual directing ability, though his work with The Flash and Supergirl has been good. I think his early work is great and if I hadn’t chosen Dogma for this I would have gone with Chasing Amy. This movie is very funny and shouldn’t be taken seriously, but then I am not overly religious.

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Your Name – Makoto Shinkai (2016)

Well is anyone really surprised that Your Name is now my favourite movie of all time. I have probably talked just as much about this movie as I have of Harry Potter or DC in posts in either of my blogs. Just about everything about this movie is perfect in my eyes. The visuals, the characterisation, the music. I actually have one of the songs in my head at the moment. I listen to the soundtrack most days and watch it at least once a week. This is the other movie I didn’t see in cinema but that was because of limited release, timing and I don’t think anyone would have come with me to see it.

I mentioned Chasing Amy and I guess you call that an honourable mention but I have one more that I debated about including in this list and that is another Mike Binder movie called Reign Over Me. Though it stars Adam Sandler it is one of his more serious turns and it a story of helping someone overcome great grief after the most horrible of tragedies.

 

 

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The Badger’s Earworm

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We have all had it happen to us as some point in time. You hear a song somewhere or maybe you wake up with in your head and it just sticks and won’t go away. It can get annoying especially if it is a song that you don’t particularly like. I once had Let It Go from Frozen in my head for a solid week and it is not a song that I like all that much, a like even less now.

Well anyway I’m in that position at the moment. For the last three days or so I have had the song Lost Stars by Adam Levine or Keira Knightley, which ever you prefer, from the movie Begin Again in my head. I woke up with it and it won’t leave. It’s rather odd because I have not watched the movie or even heard the song recently. It is also not a song that you hear regularly on the radio, actually I have never heard it on the radio.

It is times like these that I wonder if the world or whatever is trying to tell me something. I recently just finished watching the anime BECK: Mongolian Chop Squad and there are things in that speak to me. There are also some similarities between BECK and the movie Begin Again as they are both about music and finding your path/passion, whether it for the first time (BECK) or finding it again (Begin Again). Maybe it is a little serendipitous that I started watching this show and hearing that song. Maybe I have to find my path or return to it.

Maybe it is just my anxiety talking though. I do have a review tomorrow and I have also felt a little jumpy lately and my headaches and neck pain has also been playing up.

It is has been a while since I gave a wedding update so here goes. I have been forced to change the date due to money though it might end up screwing me over as the celebrant that had lined up for the original date may not be available for the new one and I really wanted this celebrant to marry us. Not just because he was offering his services for free but because I know him and he knows me and I would feel more comfortable being married by someone that I already consider to be a friend.

The new date, however, works well as my eldest niece who is one of the bridesmaids will be 18 which means she will be legal and able to drink.

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A Badger’s Doubt

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For someone that prides herself on being decisive I am starting to doubt myself a little of late and it doesn’t help that these seeds of doubt are being put into my head by my mother and also the actions and/or non-actions of the Eagle. I am naturally talking about my wedding and I am wondering if I should marry him or not.

I am doing everything and though I expected to do all the prep work because he said right from the beginning that it was his job to show up on the day and that was it I was hoping for a little more assistance when it came to the expenses of it all. He did, after all promise that he would help when he could. Hell, my mother and his mother have done more when it comes to the financial side of things than he has, and neither of them have a lot of money either, especially my own mother.

He hasn’t so far. Look I know that he doesn’t have a job and that he is not getting all that much from his government payments but he recently did some jury duty in which he got paid a bit for and in which he promised me a least half of it. I didn’t see any of it and I really could’ve used some of it to pay for some items that I had ordered or was planning on ordering for the wedding.

It is not like he has a huge amount of general expenses. He doesn’t pay rent and though he does have a credit card, a mobile phone and a car he doesn’t have any other expenses as he claims to be living on toast, energy drinks and water, and one of those is free, and whatever he gets fed at my place. I still have to fork out for petrol money for him and I was told this week that I had to buy him a massage ball and a weight as his physiotherapist told him that he need it for his shoulders and back. He is also expecting me to buy him a hoodie when he finds one that is not plain and that is warm enough.

I myself am living on less then what he gets a fortnight from his payments due to my very tight budget and am assisting my mother when I can. He also tends to brag when he helps with expenses that occur that he doesn’t need to contribute too but maybe that is my badger humbleness coming out that I find that a little distasteful.

Maybe its jitters and all now that I have finally finalised my reception area and have the invitations ready and raring to go when the time comes to send them out. I also had a wedding dream last night that got me thinking about it more, especially the hair and make-up side of things that I actually got a quote in relation to it all. The price wasn’t bad but still I have no idea how I am going to pay for it….

 

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Badger’s New Day

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I have officially moved over to another department of the company I work for. I am still trying to find my feet to an extent mainly because I have not been given any real direction of what I am supposed to be doing here. I am just doing what I can with what I have been given really. Luckily there are few familiar faces so I am probably not as anxious as I could be considering I do not like change all that much.

On the home front my sister is in hospital (again) and the more that she uses the more gets violent. She assaulted her sometimes partner last week so much so that he needed to go to the hospital. My mother and the Eagle are sort of fighting at the moment and of course that puts me in a difficult position as I can see the point from both sides, ever the fence sitter that I am.

I have sorted out my ceremonial music (yay!!) but am still tinkering with reception music, well the entrance, first dance, cake cutting, last dance/departure that kind of thing. Not sure if am going to have a daddy/daughter mother/son dance as well as the Eagle is not a dancer and I am not sure whether or not I want to dance with my step-father or not. Not even sure I want to walk down the aisle with him. Might do a Meghan Markle and walk on my own or have my mother do it. Was considering my Uncle as he is also my god-father but my mother and the Eagle thought that was a silly idea.

Though I thought I had the ceremony/reception worked out I might not have now. My mother says the reception venue is too far away from where the ceremony is. I have done a google check on this and it is only 23 minutes while both my mother and the Eagle say it is around 40. So I have to find a venue that will do the meal the way that I want it closer. Might have found one too but it is a little more expensive and without alcohol but I still have negotiate that. The whole backyard BBQ may still be on the table though, fingers crossed.

My dress and shoes have been ordered along with a tiara. Was not originally going to have one but I liked Meghan Markle’s so much that I decided to find a cheap one that was in a similar style. Have also changed my mind in regards to the bridal party dresses. I have also ordered the ties for two of the groomsmen but am worried as I have not received them as yet despite ordering them quite a while ago. I have contacted the seller 3 times but have not had a response from them. I paid for them through PayPal and also contacted them also in the hope that I get my money back.

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Trapped Badger

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So I attended a wedding yesterday. It was a last minute thing. The Eagle’s best friend’s daughter was the bride and she had a couple of people pull out at the night before and she needed seat fillers. We agreed to go as a favour and also so that I could possibly get ideas myself for our own wedding.

It was a nice wedding. The location was nice and meal was good and I did get a couple of ideas but at the same time it’s doing my head in a bit. The stress and anxiety of all is playing on me really bad that I feel a little trapped, especially inside my own head. I can almost feel like I am going to have a panic attack and start bawling at any moment.

It also doesn’t help that when I run things across other people, in particular my mother, she agrees with me and says that it is a good idea but then turns around and says the opposite to the Eagle. As their wedding was on a Thursday I put it to her to maybe have a weekday wedding as it might end up being cheaper. We worked out an alternate date and everything. The Eagle told me later on that she thought it was a stupid idea.

I also leaning towards a more industrial/warehouse styled wedding as I believe it fits well with the superhero/Joker and Harley Quinn theme but like with every other place or even idea I have come up with just finding the right place has proven to be difficult. Naturally there is nothing in what I consider to be my local area as they are more likely to be closer to or in the city or on the other side of Brisbane. I also kind of a like the idea of a feast/banquet style kind of like how they had meals at Hogwarts. Maybe I am just being a little too picky.

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Badger The Foodie

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I am feeling a little down today and it is the wedding that is making me feel this way. It is mainly money and how I am going to pay for it all as I really don’t expect the Eagle to assist. I am also keep on getting fixated on certain aspects. In a previous post it was music, for a while last week it was party favours. I got that one sorted out but I have moved on now to something else.

You would think that I would be obsessing over a venue and to a certain extent I am but it is not so much the venue but the food that is worrying me. In my original idea that was not an issue, at least that was what I thought. It was going to be a backyard reception with a spit and such. A big backyard BBQ. When that fell through I am now looking for affordable venues that have a good menu and that is not easy to find in my opinion.

I guess I am trying to please everyone but myself and I feel like I am doing with that with a lot of things. I guess it is the badger in me looking out for everybody else and though the Eagle does not want anything to do with the preparations it his tastes when it comes to menu items that I am trying to please and that is not good because he is extremely picky and has a rather simple to plain palette.

He won’t eat the following things:

 

  • Pork and any pig product
  • Nuts
  • Shellfish and Salmon

Admittedly I won’t eat the salmon and most shellfish though I will eat prawns but only if they are cooked and a lot of the menus that I have been looking through have at least salmon and pork belly on the menu and I have to rule that out automatically because I know that he won’t eat it and then that leaves other menu items that there might be something in it that he won’t touch. I guess I could just go with a buffet but at the same time it is kind of tacky in my mind and the food is not very fancy.
I am having issues in general of finding a place that is local to us and close to where I would like to have the ceremony. Our current favourite, and only because of price, menu is very simple and bordering on pub grub. Admittedly it is a tavern but I have checked out other taverns in the area and the food is a little more fancy. Also I have no idea what the venue actually looks like as there were no images of the room decked out for any sort of wedding or party.

I guess we have to go with what we can or postpone so that a little more saving can be done. I really don’t want to do that but we might not have a choice.

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Badger Faults

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It might be just a matter of my anxieties showing but lately I have been noticing my faults and failings and this whole wedding thing has shown a light to me of a big one that I have and that is actually asking for help or for anything, for that matter. I think with me this comes back to my childhood where I got it into my head that it was best not to ask for anything because what would be point of asking if you know the answer is going to be NO. It is also why I always wait until someone offers assistance instead of straight out asking. I don’t feel comfortable asking for anything. I makes me feel very uneasy and selfish. I guess this is also my way of not hearing the word NO spoken to me.

This is also led me to maybe being a little closed off and maybe a little too independent though I not sure if that is the right word. I just get it into my head that it is all up to me and that I am the only one that can do it and at times I do get the impression that my loved ones see it that way as well. Maybe it is my ego making an appearance, to a certain extent, but when I was younger and even now sometimes I believe that my family and the Eagle also believes that I am going to save them. From what I do not know but that is what I see and believe.

It is very draining, both mentally and emotionally, and it makes me feel like I have more weight on my shoulders than I need to.

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Speaking of the wedding we officially have one more year to go before the Badger and Eagle wed and nothing much has really happened since my last post. I have gotten the lanterns and I have decided on the wedding favors but I still don’t have a location for the wedding or any idea of how any of this is going to be paid for.

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Badger Really All Over The Place!!

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If I was all over the place last time around I definitely am now. My anxiety won’t settle and neither will the headaches. Actually the headaches are becoming a pain in the neck, both literally and figuratively. I am also not sleeping the best which is not helping on iota. The heat is also playing its part..

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The Eagle celebrated a milestone birthday over the weekend and it was another thing that I was anxious about as I was not sure that he would like the gift that he was getting from myself and his mother. It is a cruise and since he is not fond of boats I was a little worried that he would reject it outright. He was pretty okay with it as he said that he needs to loosen up and try new things and we will take the necessary medications and such so that we both will not get sea sick.

We also went out to dinner with friends of ours that night which was a nice change. We don’t get out and do things like that all the much and though we keep saying we need to do it more often we never do. I am always the one that ends up making the arrangements anyway as he just leaves it up to me and the others don’t seem to try.

The Eagle is also considering learning to ride a motorbike which means, and he has admitted to it, that he is heading into a midlife crisis. I am not sure how I feel about that yet as I have mixed feelings about it. His sister is a rider and one of couples that we had dinner with are as well and I think that was the reason why he mentioned it.

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Well the wedding preparations have fallen through a little as we can no longer hold the reception at my brother’s house as he does not believe that his land is flat enough to do it after speaking to a party planner who was doing a party at a neighbouring property. Whether or not this a true is a whole different kettle of fish as my mother, myself and the Eagle tend to think that my sister-in-law might be stirring up trouble because she does that.

Talking of my sister-in-law I had to make a change to bridal party and added her daughter as a bridesmaid. On New Year’s Eve they came over for a BBQ and I showed her the plans that I had made for the wedding. A couple of days later the Eagle got a message from my brother saying that my his daughter was upset because my junior bridesmaid had said that she was my favourite because she was in the wedding party and the other wasn’t. That didn’t sound like her at all and she said that she never said that.

On Australia Day we had another BBQ, though my sister-in-law was not present because she had to work. I spoke with my niece and asked her about it and she said that it never happened and didn’t know anything about that until a few days later when her dad asked her about it. We tend to think that her mother was bitching to my brother and he misunderstood what she said or she deliberately made up the story. Either way I then asked her if she would like to be and she said that she would. After speaking with my mother and Eagle we came up with a way that she could be a bridesmaid without adding another groomsman.

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I have nailed down the processional and recessional songs now and am trying to nail down where we having the wedding since the original idea fell through. The Eagle is a partial to going to the registry office and though it is cheaper I don’t like it. Maybe it will grow one me though.

I have also decided that the bridesmaids will not have bouquets of flowers but hold lanterns instead. The junior bridesmaid will carry two red roses as she will present them to myself and Eagle when the registry is signed. The flower girl will have a posy.

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Badger, All Over The Place

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So the Eagle did something stupid this morning as I was leaving for work. He told me, a person who he knows has anxiety issues and is prone to stressing un-necessarily, not to stress. This of course has set me off after a week where my anxiety has already been off the charts. He wants to talk to me about something and I know what it is but I am not supposed to stress about it anyway. Stupid Eagle of course I am going to stress and work myself up over it because that is what I do. My depression has also kicked in. I just need a severe headache/migraine to decide to join in to make the Un-Holy trinity that is the Badger at her worse.

My diet is also a little off the wagon at the moment and I am blaming the weather. It has been raining most of the week and we are set to have another system come through over the weekend. It is quite unusual at this time of year. I have to get back on it and especially give up the coffee again as I think that is one of the reason’s my anxiety has rearing its head this week.

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I am a little late, three weeks or so, but we have had our football codes grand finals and we had one true fairy tale and one not so much but could have been. Congratulations to the Richmond Tigers who beat the Adelaide Crows for the AFL premiership. Either way it was going to be emotional for both teams. I was more rooting for the Crows due to the fact that my boss is s Crows fan and they have a rough year last year. Richmond, on the other hand, had not won a premiership in 37 years.

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Now with the Rugby League the talking point before the game was more out the pre-game entertainment while this year was Macklemore. I am not a rap/hip hop fan per say but I do like Macklemore quite a bit. The reason why this is a talking point is at the moment we are having a postal vote on whether or not gay marriage should become legal. Macklemore, a supporter of gay marriage, has a song called Same Love and chose to perform it as part of his show. Those opposed didn’t think a Grand Final should be a place to push for agenda at. He sung the song and it was wonderful, his whole performance was wonderful and he truly looked like he was enjoying himself.

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Well back to actual game. This one was between the premiership favourites the Melbourne Storm and the underdogs (no truer words) North Queensland Cowboys. The Cowboys had only just scraped into the finals series as teams that should have won lost. They were missing there star player in Jonathan Thurston who had been out most of the season due to first a calf injury and then a shoulder one. It was very unlikely that the Cowboys were going to win but after four minutes it seemed even less likely as Prop Shaun Fensom broke his leg which meant they were down a player for the rest of the game. Melbourne won easily 34-6. It was a good send off for the star-halfback Cooper Cronk who was leaving the club at the end of the game. He will either retire or join another club in Sydney.

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Wedding preparations have been a little on the quiet side as I have other things on my mind. I have been focused a little on the music side of things and in particular the music at the ceremony.

I had decided that I wanted to walk down to the isle to a song written/performed by an Australian singer/band. It is just trying to find the right one that I am having trouble with.

I keep coming back to INXS’s Never Tear Us Apart, as the Eagle loves INXS and it is a great song, but if go with that one then I want to find an acoustic version of it and by INXS themselves and not a cover. I then flick between trying to find something by Angus and Julia Stone, Kate Miller-Heidke, Sia, Katie Noonan or Bernard Fanning. I then went in another direction and checked out The Temper Traps Sweet Disposition as a lot of people have said that is a good song to use. It just doesn’t suit what I am going for, though to be honest I don’t know what I am going for. I think of Birds of Tokyo and in particular Lanterns but think that is probably more of a recessional song than a processional. I go something truly sappy like Savage Gardens Truly, Madly Deeply, Guy Sebastian’s Angels Brought Me Here or go a little retro with Angry Anderson’s Suddenly.

I am probably overthinking it but that is the Virgo in me and it will probably get worse as it gets closer. If you have any ideas let me know because I would really like some input.

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A Badger’s Idea

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I have mentioned before that I like to do written roleplay and in particular Harry Potter roleplay. I was a member of a site for a many years that I eventually was a mod on before it was shut down and I have been in and out sites since even running my own for a while. I was a member of site at the end of last year beginning of this but sort of lost interest mainly because I believed that the site didn’t have balance, this I believe is my anxiety speaking, and since then I have done numerous searches for a new site to play on and have found that most sites have the same issue or there is an element in the plot that I don’t like or think is feasible even though in most cases it is an AU site.

They all seem to be weighted towards the dark side of the force, to borrow a Star Wars phrase, and it bothers me greatly. Look, I see the allure in playing the dark-wizard but if you give the them an extra power or just power all together you have to give the opposition an opposing power or something they can use to fight back. You can’t just have a site full of Death Eaters and no Order or Order like group to fight back with. It’s no fun trying to play a hero or just a neutral character when the scale is in heavily in favour of the dark or dark sympathetic, especially when you feel like you have to be secretive all the time.

So I have been trying to think of a plotline that I can start my own site with and I think I have it but I really need feedback on it and also assistance. I was trying to find a website when I can voice such a thing but had no luck and had put something up in OOC section of one of the sites that I am a member of but I have had no responses so I thought that I might put it up here and see if I get a nibble.

 

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The missing 20.

 

It is a little known tale that came from the second war. One month after the death of Albus Dumbledore 20 persons with magic in their blood disappeared. Differing in age, from the age of 15 and up, blood-status, and sex vanished without a trace within a span of a day. All disappearances were reported to the Ministry but with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named and his Death Eaters on the verge of taking of the Ministry of Magic the missing were soon forgotten and were assumed either dead or had left the country.

 

June 2017, 20 years later the 20 reappear. 10 appear in Glastonbury the other 10 in Seven Dials, London. They all appear to have not aged but are aware that they have.

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Now it is a work in progress as I want there to be a reason for their disappearance, but maybe that can be a part of the plot, and I also want them to have obtained something while they were away though I don’t necessarily want it to be the same thing though whatever it will be will either fall on the dark or light side. Where they arrived will define what side of the line are aligned with as I see Glastonbury as the light and Seven Dials as the dark though I guess this could change if a different location suits better.

So if there are any role players out there and think this a good idea and would like to assist I will be mighty grateful.

 

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