Alright so despite the medication my anxiety is quite high today and am having problems with concentration despite my work load. Also having trouble with decision making though admittedly it a rather frivolous thing that I have to decide on which is whether to buy Ant-Man through iTunes now or wait a week and buy a physical copy. The physical copy that I buy will have a digital copy as well so either way I will have it digitally it is just whether I can wait a week or more likely two weeks cause I can’t guarantee that I will have the money next week to get it.
You would think that with my bringing up Ant-Man that today’s post will be something Pop-Culture related and maybe even in relation to Marvel and maybe even Jessica Jones which I am watching by the way and only have two episodes left but actually I am going to talk real life matters today and about who I usually talk about when I talk RL…My sister.
She still has not filled her prescription and is apparently going cold turkey in her quest to give up smoking and that is not going to be fun. She was kicked out again on Friday night due to the fact that she had made small holes in the walls of her room due to her not having cigarettes but that did not last long as she returned Saturday night. She is allowed to stay under the proviso that she not further damage the house and swear. I think there are others but I can’t remember what they are at the moment.
She has also been talking about the fact that no one shows her any respect and we should all respect her. The only problem is that shows no respect to any one and it is very hard to respect someone that does not reciprocate. I mean how can you respect someone swears and carries on. How can you respect someone when they scream at you and are calling your mother a bitch and a slut especially in the middle of the street where a neighbour could hear you. How can you respect someone who is so selfish and demanding that you have to drop whatever you are doing so that you have to drive them up the road to get smokes or go to the library.
She treats everything in the house as it is hers, actually she treats the house is general as if she owns it and has actually told my mother to leave her house. If she buys something like food for the house it is hers and hers alone and will get angry with you for using but is ok for her to open and use anything and everything. It is like everything that is hers is hers and everything that is yours is hers as well.
Song Of The Day
When I was around 22 years old I was in a car crash. I was a front seat passenger in a Holden Commodore coming onto a on ramp to a local freeway. Myself, the guy I was seeing at the time and a girlfriend of mine had just seen a movie at a local theatre and was heading into town to play some pool. My “boyfriend” was the driver and he was paying more attention to me then he was to the road and went right up the back of a car that had broken down. He was not speeding but my head still hit the windscreen.
I was taken to a local hospital where surgery was down on my forehead which had glass all through it. I had a hole pretty much above by left eye and had a skin graft to cover that up. Believe me when I say there is nothing scarier than a needle being put in your eye. I have a scar that goes from my over my left eye over the top where my nose starts and into the beginning of my right eye. It is only really noticeable if you are looking for it or if you really drunk as I found out when I went on a cruise a year or so later.
Even since I suffer from headaches. I have some form of headache everyday but some days they are worse than others. I wouldn’t call them migraines because I only have ever had what I would call a migraine once and I call it that because the pain of it made me cry. But they can get pretty severe to the point that I can’t see properly and they make feel quite ill in the stomach but not enough to make it physical. The headaches seem to start in my neck and a doctor diagnosed Cervical Spondylosis which is basically arthritis in the neck. Apart from heat or cold packs and ibuprofen there is nothing that can be done. I have had massages, acupuncture and physio for treatment and sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t.
Of course the headaches don’t really help considering that I now suffer from anxiety and depression. I do not drive partially because of the accident and also because I don’t have the best concentration span and the anxiety makes that worse. I did take lessons once but ended up smashing my then boyfriends brand new Mazda 3 into a person’s fence. He tried to sue me after we broke up but that didn’t happen because I was a learner driver and he had lost his licence drink driving so I should not have been driving in the first place. I also get nervous when I am a passenger and the car speeds up which is quite odd because speed did not play a factor in the accident.
If any of you were wondering about the driver we naturally broke up. His car was written off but everything was alright with him as all he got was a sprained wrist and his daddy bought him a new car. Ever since then I have had a great dislike for Holdens.
Song Of The Day