Goal Setting Badger

 

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This is probably going to be a bit of update/catch all kind of post as there are a few things that I have on my mind or need to get off my chest as apart from my psychologist I have no other outlet that will listen and won’t make me feel bad for my thoughts and/or feelings.

 

First off

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Now that is out of the way on we go. I called this post Goal Setting Badger because I kind of set some goals for myself this year and actually wrote them down. I don’t usually like to set goals for myself as I never keep them but in the diary that I bought for the year there was a section for goal setting so thought that I would put a couple down. They are:

  • Get Married
  • Lose Weight
  • Write More/Start Writing Book

 

Now the first one has been on the cards for a while though if the Eagle doesn’t start helping out more it might not go ahead as money and the fact that most of my family doesn’t think I should marry him anyway and tells me so, my mother on a daily basis, which raises my anxiety and depression levels. He is also not helping himself with his moods and general attitude.

 

The second one is for myself and a little for wedding and I have already begun. I have been exercising since the beginning of the year and I have adjusted my diet so that I am eating approx. 1200 a day. I might not look it but due to my height I am considered obese and I needed to do something about it. So I did. It is working so far but that may change because apparently it my responsibility to make sure that my mother eats properly and with the diet most of my weekly budget goes on the food I need for the week. This of course makes me feel guilty and of course that raises my anxiety and depression levels.

 

Now the last one is all for myself and is probably going to be hardest as finding the time and energy to do so will be a challenge of itself. I would be happy enough to blog a little more actually but writing a book is my ultimate goal/dream for myself. Hopefully this will not cause any anxiety or depression but knowing me I will find a way.

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In the last week and a bit I have done two, well let’s say three things that I haven’t done in a while or never done before. The first one was my birthday present from the Eagle last year, which he bitched about buying because of price and the fact that it was something that he was not interested in himself (I half expected him to pull out actually, luckily I had a backup plan) despite that it was my birthday present and something that I wanted. It was also a bit of a bucket list item for me. It being seeing my current favourite band in concert. That band is Florence and the Machine. It was first concert I have seen in a long time and the first outdoor concert I have attended. I loved it, though admittedly they didn’t play enough songs from the first two albums but I understand why they didn’t.

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The next thing I did was groom a dog and I don’t mean just brushing one. I shaved a dog that was not my own. The Eagle and I bought a electric razor to groom our Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, Lady, as she absolutely hates the heat and we have been grooming her ourselves for a couple of months now. My mother happened to tell a lady she knows this and asked that we do her dog as well. The Eagle was not comfortable doing it but mum offered up myself with assistance from her to do it. Luckily we did a pretty good job and  the lady was happy with our efforts.

 

The last and final thing I did was go fishing. It is not something that I do often or even enjoy doing, actually I don’t consider myself to have any of what I call fish sense.  The Eagle and I were invited to go by my sister and her sometimes bf and although the Eagle was not super keen I talked him into it as it was something to do and was inexpensive as the sometime bf was bringing the bait and was paying for lunch. All we had to do was bring some fishing rods, which luckily we had. It ended up being alright despite having no fish sense and the unhealthy lunch (KFC).

 

Oh and I also dyed my hair violet.

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P.S bet you thought it was going to be Florence and the Machine!!
 

 

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Badger On A Diet

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So due to my wedding and my doctor instructing me to do so I am now on a diet. I am 10 or so kilo’s overweight according to BMI, though admittedly I do not look it, I have high cholesterol (worrying but controllable) and an iron deficiency.

A couple of years ago I had a personal trainer and a gym membership but I gave that up due to the expense. So when it came to exercise I will admit to being a little lax. I was given a FitBit for my birthday by the Eagle and my mother and I have to admit it is a great motivator, more than the PT and gym membership ever was. Now almost every morning I will get up around 5 am and walk my mother’s dachshund, Winni, and my Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, Lady. Occasionally my sister’s min-fox x Chihuahua, Steve, will escape and follow us or if I am joined by someone we will take him along.

As for the diet, totally given up coffee and soft-drinks. I really only drink water and the occasional cup of tea and meal replacement shake. I only allow myself bread at the end of the week. I couldn’t give it up completely as I am part Greek and I love my bread. I have oats every weekday morning and Monday and Tuesday for lunch I bring in a bowl of raw vegetables for lunch. I use the FitBit app to keep track on what I am eating.

I weigh myself every day. I used to do it once a week on Friday but I hated the set of scales we had as I seemed to be putting on weight rather than losing it. So I bought a new set of scales and have come to a conclusion that the weight gain was most likely putting on muscle as I have now begun to lose weight. Actually a lot of people in my business unit are on some kind of health kick which is great.

 

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A Wedding Update

My sister-in-law’s to be have offered their assistance with the Eagle’s older sister offering to assist with the decoration side of things as well as make the bouquets. She is really crafty and though I would love to be I am not. I also don’t have the time while I think she does. I have nailed down the Bridesmaid dresses and possibly my own. I just need to finalise my flower girls dress and decide whether or not her twin brother will be a page boy and if I am going to go that far with it all.

We are most likely going to have a jumping castle at the reception as we have the land to do it and it will be fun for the kids and it will keep them occupied. It was the Eagle’s sisters idea and she just happens to have one on hand. She also has a marquee which is also handy.

 

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