Badger Really All Over The Place!!

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If I was all over the place last time around I definitely am now. My anxiety won’t settle and neither will the headaches. Actually the headaches are becoming a pain in the neck, both literally and figuratively. I am also not sleeping the best which is not helping on iota. The heat is also playing its part..

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The Eagle celebrated a milestone birthday over the weekend and it was another thing that I was anxious about as I was not sure that he would like the gift that he was getting from myself and his mother. It is a cruise and since he is not fond of boats I was a little worried that he would reject it outright. He was pretty okay with it as he said that he needs to loosen up and try new things and we will take the necessary medications and such so that we both will not get sea sick.

We also went out to dinner with friends of ours that night which was a nice change. We don’t get out and do things like that all the much and though we keep saying we need to do it more often we never do. I am always the one that ends up making the arrangements anyway as he just leaves it up to me and the others don’t seem to try.

The Eagle is also considering learning to ride a motorbike which means, and he has admitted to it, that he is heading into a midlife crisis. I am not sure how I feel about that yet as I have mixed feelings about it. His sister is a rider and one of couples that we had dinner with are as well and I think that was the reason why he mentioned it.

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Well the wedding preparations have fallen through a little as we can no longer hold the reception at my brother’s house as he does not believe that his land is flat enough to do it after speaking to a party planner who was doing a party at a neighbouring property. Whether or not this a true is a whole different kettle of fish as my mother, myself and the Eagle tend to think that my sister-in-law might be stirring up trouble because she does that.

Talking of my sister-in-law I had to make a change to bridal party and added her daughter as a bridesmaid. On New Year’s Eve they came over for a BBQ and I showed her the plans that I had made for the wedding. A couple of days later the Eagle got a message from my brother saying that my his daughter was upset because my junior bridesmaid had said that she was my favourite because she was in the wedding party and the other wasn’t. That didn’t sound like her at all and she said that she never said that.

On Australia Day we had another BBQ, though my sister-in-law was not present because she had to work. I spoke with my niece and asked her about it and she said that it never happened and didn’t know anything about that until a few days later when her dad asked her about it. We tend to think that her mother was bitching to my brother and he misunderstood what she said or she deliberately made up the story. Either way I then asked her if she would like to be and she said that she would. After speaking with my mother and Eagle we came up with a way that she could be a bridesmaid without adding another groomsman.

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I have nailed down the processional and recessional songs now and am trying to nail down where we having the wedding since the original idea fell through. The Eagle is a partial to going to the registry office and though it is cheaper I don’t like it. Maybe it will grow one me though.

I have also decided that the bridesmaids will not have bouquets of flowers but hold lanterns instead. The junior bridesmaid will carry two red roses as she will present them to myself and Eagle when the registry is signed. The flower girl will have a posy.

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Badger, All Over The Place

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So the Eagle did something stupid this morning as I was leaving for work. He told me, a person who he knows has anxiety issues and is prone to stressing un-necessarily, not to stress. This of course has set me off after a week where my anxiety has already been off the charts. He wants to talk to me about something and I know what it is but I am not supposed to stress about it anyway. Stupid Eagle of course I am going to stress and work myself up over it because that is what I do. My depression has also kicked in. I just need a severe headache/migraine to decide to join in to make the Un-Holy trinity that is the Badger at her worse.

My diet is also a little off the wagon at the moment and I am blaming the weather. It has been raining most of the week and we are set to have another system come through over the weekend. It is quite unusual at this time of year. I have to get back on it and especially give up the coffee again as I think that is one of the reason’s my anxiety has rearing its head this week.

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I am a little late, three weeks or so, but we have had our football codes grand finals and we had one true fairy tale and one not so much but could have been. Congratulations to the Richmond Tigers who beat the Adelaide Crows for the AFL premiership. Either way it was going to be emotional for both teams. I was more rooting for the Crows due to the fact that my boss is s Crows fan and they have a rough year last year. Richmond, on the other hand, had not won a premiership in 37 years.

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Now with the Rugby League the talking point before the game was more out the pre-game entertainment while this year was Macklemore. I am not a rap/hip hop fan per say but I do like Macklemore quite a bit. The reason why this is a talking point is at the moment we are having a postal vote on whether or not gay marriage should become legal. Macklemore, a supporter of gay marriage, has a song called Same Love and chose to perform it as part of his show. Those opposed didn’t think a Grand Final should be a place to push for agenda at. He sung the song and it was wonderful, his whole performance was wonderful and he truly looked like he was enjoying himself.

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Well back to actual game. This one was between the premiership favourites the Melbourne Storm and the underdogs (no truer words) North Queensland Cowboys. The Cowboys had only just scraped into the finals series as teams that should have won lost. They were missing there star player in Jonathan Thurston who had been out most of the season due to first a calf injury and then a shoulder one. It was very unlikely that the Cowboys were going to win but after four minutes it seemed even less likely as Prop Shaun Fensom broke his leg which meant they were down a player for the rest of the game. Melbourne won easily 34-6. It was a good send off for the star-halfback Cooper Cronk who was leaving the club at the end of the game. He will either retire or join another club in Sydney.

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Wedding preparations have been a little on the quiet side as I have other things on my mind. I have been focused a little on the music side of things and in particular the music at the ceremony.

I had decided that I wanted to walk down to the isle to a song written/performed by an Australian singer/band. It is just trying to find the right one that I am having trouble with.

I keep coming back to INXS’s Never Tear Us Apart, as the Eagle loves INXS and it is a great song, but if go with that one then I want to find an acoustic version of it and by INXS themselves and not a cover. I then flick between trying to find something by Angus and Julia Stone, Kate Miller-Heidke, Sia, Katie Noonan or Bernard Fanning. I then went in another direction and checked out The Temper Traps Sweet Disposition as a lot of people have said that is a good song to use. It just doesn’t suit what I am going for, though to be honest I don’t know what I am going for. I think of Birds of Tokyo and in particular Lanterns but think that is probably more of a recessional song than a processional. I go something truly sappy like Savage Gardens Truly, Madly Deeply, Guy Sebastian’s Angels Brought Me Here or go a little retro with Angry Anderson’s Suddenly.

I am probably overthinking it but that is the Virgo in me and it will probably get worse as it gets closer. If you have any ideas let me know because I would really like some input.

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The Badger’s Oscar

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So I had a significant birthday and though I was alright with turning this particular age earlier in the year. The week or so before the big day I had major anxiety so much so that I had to go on leave earlier than planned. I was going to go on leave the Friday before my birthday and I ended up going two days earlier.

 

This week is my first week back and though my anxiety was present during my time off it has flared up mightily. Maybe because of decisions made during leave like going and doing some extra study and trying to find a place to rent with my bf, sister and her bf. Yes, I know this is a little on the crazy side and both my bf and I realise this but it is the only way that we are going to be able to afford to move in together and my step-father has been getting a little more verbally abusive towards me of late and it can’t be good for my mental health.

 

The problem is my sister is getting rather demanding. She has given specifications on where we have to live and she is not really taking in consideration anyone else’s need but her own. It has to be in one particular suburb so she can be closer to her kids. I understand that but her other housemates will have requirements as well. I need to have public transport close by and her bf will need a big enough garage or shed to work out of. Luckily my bf is quite easy but then he is probably going to have the biggest issue with living with her especially if she goes off the rails.

 

I went away with the bf over the weekend and though the trip was good I now am feeling majorly tired. I am a reasonably good sleeper so much so that I can fall asleep in most places and though I can fall asleep it is not guaranteed that I will stay asleep or sleep well. The place that we stayed at I did not sleep well especially the second night. I kept on dreaming of my return to work and every time I had a major headache and I could feel the pain of the headache while I was asleep. I also didn’t sleep well the night before going to work. That I think was anxiety.

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So despite my anxiety in relation to the birthday it was a really good day and I got some really good gifts and had a really good party. My Aunt, Uncle and Grandmother came up from Melbourne and despite a friend of the family getting drunk, which is no surprise because she is an alcoholic and our boarder trying to get me drunk I was a good night with good food and good people.

 

My best gift is the one I got from my boyfriend is the statuette form of the Joker/Harley Cover and I call it my Oscar because of the shape and feel and maybe even the size.

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Traumatic Badger

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I have already spoken about my accident in another post and I got another doctor’s opinion in regards to it and his diagnosis was the same as my regular doc so pretty much I have to live with having a constant headache and accompanying neck pain. He did though recommend that I get my thyroid checked and have a sleep test done because I am also constantly tired though I sleeping well. He also suggested that I suffered from or am still suffering from PTSD due to the accident.

I never once thought this but now that he outlined it is probably correct. I still get nervous when a car I am in and I am a front seat passenger speeds up or when they go through a yellow light, especially when they had time to stop. I don’t like having trucks or bigger cars close beside me either. None of these were a contribution to my accident but my anxiety levels rise in these occasions.

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It is that time of year again, it is State of Origin time and as I mentioned in a previous post I no longer watch the spectacle that is Mate vs Mate, State vs State. I used to love it look forward to it and my stop watching it has nothing to do with the fact that the team that I go for, The NSW Blues, have only won the series once in the last 10 years. My not watching any longer has to with an ex-boyfriend and one of the best players for the Queensland Maroons, Jonathan Thurston.  

Straight off the bat my ex was a drinker with a temper and was extremely jealous. There was nothing he liked better than starting a fight and he openly boasted about the fights that he had been in. His drink of choice was rum and rum and a temper and jealousy do no mix well at all. I had gone over to his house to watch the game which is on a Wednesday night and was naturally going to stay the night there as he lived on the other side of town. His roommate, his girlfriend and another friend were also there.

My ex spent most of the game in the backyard drinking with the friend and his roommate, the girlfriend and I watched the game. They would pop in every now and again to check the score or when something exciting happened. Every time he would pop in he would take pot shots at Jonathan Thurston because he was getting a lot of attention in the media at the time, and he still is to a certain extent, mainly because he is a great player and is pretty consistent. He had not watched the game and I was getting annoyed with him because of the remarks he was making so despite going for the opposition I defended him.

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My defence of this Queenslander and the fact that I had seen him at the airport once when I had gone to Sydney for a Harry Potter release party and had mentioned it to him when I got off the plane had my ex putting 2 and 2 together and coming up with 1000. He claimed that I was in love with him. I was of course not, I was actually not in the least attracted to him in any shape or form and I think at the time said he looked like a monkey (I did not mean that in a racist manner at all).

He kept taking his pot shots at me and Jonathan Thurston and I kept on defending him with some assistance from the roommate and the gf. When the game finished, the Blues won btw, I went to bed. The ex followed and continued to take pot shots and called me a liar. I got angrier and angrier and threatened to punch him, he goaded me and I did end up punching him in the face. Unfortunately I had a silver with blue topaz ring on which had sharp corners, when I connected the ring scratched him and he got angrier and started beating my head against the headboard.

It was too late to go home that night and he took me to the bus stop the next morning for work and as I had training that day and I promised him that I would go over to his place the next day which was Friday for the weekend. I was a wreck and on Friday morning he kept calling me and calling me and eventually a colleague of my took me aside into one of the conference rooms. I told her what happened and she called in the boss they took photos of the bruises with my phone and sent me home. I broke my promise, which he didn’t like cause I don’t like breaking promises and he knew that, I considered my situation and how our relationship had been. Hell, even his sister-in-law had offered to assist in getting me away from him at once stage. On Monday I called him and broke it off. I did not ever want to put myself in the that position again over something as stupid as a football player.

 

So I know how a new tradition at Origin time I watch anime and not just any anime my favourite anime of all time.   Cowboy Bebop

 

 

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Zombie Badger

Tuesday, 5 April 2016

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The last couple of days I have felt like I am a zombie or something. It is not that I suddenly have a hankering for brains or anything like that but I feel like I am sleepwalking to a certain extent. It all started with a stye on my left eye and I have always considered my left eye to be the weaker one due to my car accident. The stye arrived on Tuesday of last week, see I told you Tuesdays were bad, and ever since Friday my vision in the left eye has be blurry to the extent that I spend some of the day with that eye closed. It is even worse at work because of the lights and looking at a screen all day and makes my headaches and anxiety even worse.

 

Sunday was particularly bad so much so that even my stepfather remarked that I did not look well. I looked like I had not slept, I had a puffy red eye and my head was pounding. I also felt like I could not focus on anything and I don’t mean mentally, I mean visually. I just wanted to sleep all day but it was my nieces weekend and my mother had invited a friend over to Sunday lunch plus the BF was there.

 

Well the doctor’s visit helped with the anxiety to a certain extent though I am still tired all the time and my headaches are not any better. My eyes just get so heavy, especially at work, and I am also beginning to sleep in which is something I have never been able to do. No matter how much caffeine and other pick me ups I have it doesn’t make any difference.

 

I have to say though with the excess sleepiness and maybe even the change in medication I seem to be dreaming rather vividly though admittedly I am not really remembering much of them only that they are clear when I am dreaming them. Like for instance last week I had a dream and a dream that I am pretty I have had before as I seemed to recall it while I was dreaming it. I know there were characters in it from books and movies that I have seen and I know that if I could remember the dream the premise behind it would make a really good story to write.

 

I am pretty sure that Snow White and Charming were in it and so were Marvel characters like Captain America and Iron Man and I have a feeling that they were not the characters names as such but more of a title that was inherited by a normal person. I also get the feeling that the most recent people to inherit these titles were not good people and up to the people who had inherited their nemeses titles to stop them as they were now good. I don’t think it makes much sense but I think that was the dream. Maybe my fandoms are getting muddled and are now just popping up in my dreams because I think the Winchesters were in it too. I have dreamed of them before also.

 

Another dream that I had was that me and my BF bought a house though it was in a place that we were not even considering buying. It was a really good price and it was by the seas and pretty much every room that we were in we could see the ocean. We were however considering knocking it down and building the house that we actually want which we have found.

 

I have also found the ring I want for my engagement ring, now I just have to wait to be asked….

 

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Bibs And Bobs Of The Badger

I watched Avatar this past weekend so I guess a hooray is in order that I got that out of the way. All I am going to say about the movie is meh. It was pretty to look at but I don’t think that it is a great of a movie that people make it out to be. Technically I didn’t have to watch it as my niece wants to see the Batman Vs Superman and she could have gone in place of my BF but we weren’t doing anything on Sunday and I was just pleased that I didn’t fall asleep. 

My headaches have gotten worse to the point where I have had to leave work early on Friday and have made an appointment to see a doctor. The headaches, anxiety and drowsiness are not a good combination especially while I am at work. I am hoping that the doctor will find a better medication to put me to combat this as I think the medication is not helping with any of three symptoms as it is. I also think that maybe they will need to check my B12 levels when it comes to the drowsiness.

 

My sister has dropped to a new low. First off that trip to Hervey Bay has her needing to appear in court as she was caught there driving without a licence. She claims that she got a message relieving her off this but we all think that this is not true and she will most likely get arrested. We believe that this is not true mainly because she has been hallucinating a bit lately. Early Saturday night she woke most of us up because she woke up feeling as someone was holding a gun to her head. She also believed that her children were there and our cousin who lived in Melbourne was there. We did not have the girls that weekend but she kept asking how they and our cousin were.

 

Later on she asked her father to take her to the hospital because of her ‘depression’. She was put on a drip and sent home. The following day she asked her father to take her to a local hotel in which she stayed the night there. Apparently she did not like the room service so she deliberately checked out late. They charged her extra for the late checkout and she got pissed off. My mother picked her up and she demanded to be taken to her bank to get the money back but my mother refused and told her that is not how it works. This of course pissed off my sister. She is also refusing to pay the money she owes for the computers I ‘rented’ for her because she says that I owe her $1000 because of the cashback. The cashback was never that much and beside that money is all gone anyway due to bills that I had to pay due because I am now left short due to that. I also think she has forgotten how the world works in general. 

 

On a different note all together I am having a bit an identity crisis due to Pottermore. I decided to redo the sorting quiz and this time around I came up Ravenclaw I was not happy with this answer so I took it again. I again came up Ravenclaw. I have nothing against Ravenclaw but never once thought of myself as one leaning always to Hufflepuff and Gryffindor.

 

BADGER FOR LIFE!!!

  

 
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The Badger Update

Avatar Update:

Still have not watched the movie though I have watched Deadpool and The Martian and I enjoyed both. Only have a couple of weekends left before my deadline of watching the movie before Dawn of Justice comes out. Still do not want to watch the movie but really want to watch DoJ.

Sister Update:

She still has a job so that is great and her moods have been better except for Sundays…

On Sundays she is mopey and does her usual thing of giving everyone dirty looks, crying and mumbling to herself and asking for money for cigarettes because she has run out. She is also asking for money to get to work because she has had a fight with the person that was going to take her the day/night before and now is unable to get to work. She is also asking for a spare GoCard, which is a public transport card here in SE Queensland that allows you to catch any form of public transport and can be continually topped up to pay your fare. All you to do is tag on and off and every tenth fare is free. We used to have a spare one which I think we lent or gave to her at one point and I take it she has lost or gave to someone else (I think we lent it to her when she was with her ex and she gave it to him). Even if we did still have it there would be no money on it anyway so it would be of no help.

Anxiety/Depression Update:

Still feeling anxious most days and at times a little blue. My insides are jittery most of the time and I can feel my heart racing. I am using a different form of the medication and I am not sure if it is working. I have noticed that I tire easily though I am not sleeping badly. The tiredness usually comes over me mid-morning and I find it hard to keep my eyes opens as they are really heavy. This is not good for when I am at work as my supervisor noticed on Friday and told me to take an early lunch so that I could get some fresh air. I am not sure if it is medication or the weather, as it has been really hot, or a combination of both. My headaches are also getting more noticeable. Have not had another panic attack and that should count for something.

BF Update:

Now I know that I really don’t talk about him or our relationship all that often but I thought I would say something as there have been a few developments.

We might be going to Japan at the end of the year which for me is really exciting as it somewhere, and the only place in Asia that we both really want to go to, and also because my BF is afraid to fly. I am really confidant about this mainly because he is actually talking about it with family and friends and if he wasn’t keen he wouldn’t mention it at all to other people. I hope it is not a case of talking and no action on his behalf.

The other thing is we might get a place together which I know a lot of people would say is about time as we have been together for about 5 years now. The reason why we haven’t is admittedly mainly because of me and the fact that I am comfortable where I am but considering recent events I need to get out for my own health. Also I do not want to rent and my BF did. I have also relented as I also didn’t want to leave the area that I am in but we will never be able to afford it. I think we are going to look at getting a no-deposit house and land package or something that is the Logan area of SE Queensland that is close to public transport.

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I was not originally going to have another post today but my sisters behaviour last night compelled me to post as it annoyed me greatly. In her rants and mumbles she kept on talking about that the life that she leads now is not the life that she wanted or was meant to have and that everything that had has occurred in her life was forced on her by others and that she had no choice. These rumblings were all because she had no money and there for no cigarettes.

This lead me to think of free will which of course lead me to think of Harry Potter and in particular Dumbledore. My sister is the one that introduced me to JK Rowling’s world which has had a massive effect on me and I can’t believe that she has forgotten the story and also the major that is the choices that we make are what makes us who we are.

In the books Dumbledore refers to the choices people make twice. The first time in second book Chamber of Secrets when he says to Harry that “it is the choice that show what we truly are, not our abilities.” The second times is in my favourite of the books Goblet of Fire where he address the whole of the school after the death of Cedric Diggory, may Merlin bless his soul, “Remember, if the time should come when you have to make between what is right and what is easy what happened to a boy who was kind and brave…”

Now how this applies to my sister is that that no matter she is saying right now or when she is suffering from whatever withdrawal that is I going through is that it was her choice to date and marry the man that she did and have his children. She was not forced to take up smoking and take the drugs that she took. She might had been encouraged in some way to do so but she could have easily said no. It is was her choice to sign away the townhouse that she owned to him and sell the house and sign the paperwork that gave him more money when they separated, she was advised to do neither but she still did it. She might have really had no choice to come and live in our house but at that time she had nowhere else to go but she does have a “boyfriend” and she can stay with him but choose not to and then complains about it.

I really don’t know what life she thinks she should have had but there is no point in complaining about what you don’t have and focus on what you do because that will only make you unhappy and those around you unhappy. I never once thought that I would be the age that I am and have never married and still living with my parents, but I am and I am not going to complain about it and blame anyone else for it because it is my own doing and fault that it is the way that is it. I have a roof over my head, a good job, a family, friends, boyfriend and dog who love me and who I love in return. I have travelled and have hobbies that keep me entertained. It might not be much but it is all that I need.

Sure I suffer from anxiety, depression and headaches but I don’t see the point of complaining about what I don’t have and what I should have because that will only make me miserable. This leads to another Dumbledore quote and what I will leave us with today

Badger’s Accident

When I was around 22 years old I was in a car crash. I was a front seat passenger in a Holden Commodore coming onto a on ramp to a local freeway. Myself, the guy I was seeing at the time and a girlfriend of mine had just seen a movie at a local theatre and was heading into town to play some pool. My “boyfriend” was the driver and he was paying more attention to me then he was to the road and went right up the back of a car that had broken down. He was not speeding but my head still hit the windscreen.

I was taken to a local hospital where surgery was down on my forehead which had glass all through it. I had a hole pretty much above by left eye and had a skin graft to cover that up. Believe me when I say there is nothing scarier than a needle being put in your eye. I have a scar that goes from my over my left eye over the top where my nose starts and into the beginning of my right eye. It is only really noticeable if you are looking for it or if you really drunk as I found out when I went on a cruise a year or so later.

Even since I suffer from headaches. I have some form of headache everyday but some days they are worse than others. I wouldn’t call them migraines because I only have ever had what I would call a migraine once and I call it that because the pain of it made me cry. But they can get pretty severe to the point that I can’t see properly and they make feel quite ill in the stomach but not enough to make it physical. The headaches seem to start in my neck and a doctor diagnosed Cervical Spondylosis which is basically arthritis in the neck. Apart from heat or cold packs and ibuprofen there is nothing that can be done. I have had massages, acupuncture and physio for treatment and sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t.

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Of course the headaches don’t really help considering that I now suffer from anxiety and depression. I do not drive partially because of the accident and also because I don’t have the best concentration span and the anxiety makes that worse. I did take lessons once but ended up smashing my then boyfriends brand new Mazda 3 into a person’s fence. He tried to sue me after we broke up but that didn’t happen because I was a learner driver and he had lost his licence drink driving so I should not have been driving in the first place. I also get nervous when I am a passenger and the car speeds up which is quite odd because speed did not play a factor in the accident.

If any of you were wondering about the driver we naturally broke up. His car was written off but everything was alright with him as all he got was a sprained wrist and his daddy bought him a new car. Ever since then I have had a great dislike for Holdens.

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Crazy Badger

I am not feeling the greatest today but I didn’t really want to stay home as work seems to be my refuge, in a way, from the craziness that is my living environment. I still live at home which is terrible for someone my age but I have never been able to afford to move out. I love my family, don’t get me wrong, but at the moment they are the primary cause of my anxiety and they don’t seem to really understand that as they are getting anxiety and stress mixed up.

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My sister is the main problem as she is essentially causing the most drama at home. She moved back recently as she really had nowhere to go. She lost her job, her marriage broke down and she lost her kids. She sees them once a fortnight on the weekends and on the week leading up to that weekend her craziness levels rise tenfold. She has addiction issues and suffers from depression and she refuses to get help for either issue. She also refuses to own up to her own mistakes and transfers all her issues and faults on to others.

She also has little to no money most of the time and when she does have some she buys stuff the she doesn’t need and she doesn’t pay her bills. She is constantly borrowing our phones and iPads because she keeps hocking her own and then carries on when we refuse. She cries, howls, screams, calls people names, mumbles under her breath when she passes you and threatens to kills herself. When she found out about my diagnosis she asked what she could do to help. I just rolled my eyes at her.

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My mother is the main one that cops it from her and she it at her wits end. She has tried on numerous occasions to kick her out but every time my Step-Father invites her back. My sister claims that my mother doesn’t help her though she get free room and board and doesn’t have to lift a finger with anything. My mother has made numerous appointments for her to see doctors but she never goes to any of them. She swears and calls my mother names all the time and claims that she had a terrible childhood and that we didn’t go anywhere or do anything. This if of course a lie because we went to Disneyland and Hawaii when she was 13 years old and also went to numerous other places as well.

She had her eldest at the age of 21 and says because of that she missed out on all the things that people that age do, you know the clubbing and the drinking and the general hanging out. I did all that and it wasn’t all that special but then I am not much of a drinker and neither is she. She also claims to have no friends but then all the friends she did have she has pushed away and the rest couldn’t handle her crazy.

I really didn’t want to put up with all of that today so instead I went to work and I really wish that I could of stayed home and slept a little more and watched Netflix or Animelab which ever took my fancy. Actually that was what I was hoping to talk about today my actual interest but the crazy took over.

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