I feel like breaking into song and singing a little Staind at the moment but this is not really the time or even the place. I doubt that anyone would appreciate me breaking into song. I am not Kevin Smith after all (he always sings it when he says the phrase).
Still having inspiration and concentration issues. Started seeing my psychologist again and she has suggested that I defer on the study until I can calm done. Have done a little bit of travelling over the last month in which the thought of flying really started stressing me out which has never happened before as I have been mentioned in a previous post that I love flying. Saw my father for the first time in 27 years while on said travel which was really emotional as he is not a well man (suffers from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s). The second lot of travel took me up to a cyclone affected area of North Queensland to do a little recovery work where strangely my anxiety decided to play nice for all but one day and that was due to my dislike of confrontation. We also had a really good EAP (Employee Assistance Program) rep available.
Sister was in hospital again but is now out and being a pain in ass. She wants my bed because I have a better mattress and naturally I don’t want to give it up because it is my bed. Booked a cruise for next year for my bf’s 50th. Since he doesn’t like boats it is going to be interesting. Family are planning on selling the family home due to the fact that my stepfather and my mother have split. Might finally get the money that he owes me.
Want to get a semicolon tattoo either behind my one of my ears or on the same wrist as my Harley’s Diamonds tattoo. Also want get a Wonder Woman tattoo on the opposing wrist before the movie comes out. BTW the trailers are awesome and so it the Justice League ones. Speaking of DC properties been reading a lot of comic books lately due to the travel and a podcast that I listen to. If you like DC comics and don’t mind long podcasts and I mean 10 to 12 hour long podcasts listen to Weird Science DC. They are really insightful and review every DC related comic weekly. They also treat their listeners well are very funny.
Though this is my first in while on this blog I have put up a few posts on my review blog in which I have put up reviews for the following:
Ready Player One (Book)
Assassination Classroom (Anime)
Cowboy Bebop (Anime)
Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movie)
Song Of The Day
Okay so my anxiety has gotten worse so much so that I had to leave and go home on Friday of last week because I just could not focus on anything. I had to explain the feeling to my boss because he has never had the feeling before. We broke it down to having approx 10 coffees in a short amount of time.
I have put it down to my medication as I had been given a generic form of my medication and it was making me wired. I went to get my normal medication but my chemist had stopped getting it and had only the one that using and another that was way more expensive. I am still taking the medication but I am making sure that I eat before taking it as the anxiety isn’t as bad if I eat first.
Since it has been two weeks since my birthday I have come to the conclusion that it probably wasn’t that entirely that is the source of my current lapse. I am thinking that is the decisions that I have made that might be a contributing factor. That being my decision to move in with my bf, sister and her bf and also to return to study. I have a real bad habit of making decisions on the spur of the moment and they figuring out the consequences later on. That last time this happened I had got together with my bf, decided to study and also agreed to go overseas. Two out of three were good decisions the third one I never finished.
Another decision I made was to get back into Harry Potter written role play. I have been wanting to for a while it was just trying to find the right site and I think I found it though it is not exactly what I was looking for. I have only played in and around the Voldemort/Harry timeline and up to 10-20 years after the books were set and also in a PG kind of atmosphere. This time around is set in 2053 and it definitely a Adults website so much so that they have included a comfortability form to complete.
The staff and members are really friendly and I joined using the son of a character that I have had for a while. The good thing with this site is that they don’t mind you having multiple characters and to a certain extent they even encourage it so in the future I might bring in other characters that I have created. I just have to work on how they fit into the story being played out.
The site is called The Next Incantation and if you have any interest in role play I would love to see you there I am playing a character called Mack Wilde there.
The other thing that I have done recently is get back into Anime. Because of my DC binge I had stopped watching anime altogether but started up again over the weekend. I decided to re-watch Fairy Tail starting with the Phantom Lord arc and am currently on the Oración Seis arc. Though I love this show and love Erza and Jellal as a couple for some reason I don’t enjoy the arc’s where Jellal is prominent like this one and the previous Tower of Heaven Arc. Maybe it is because I don’t like seeing Erza vulnerable or her past and Jellal always brings that out in her.
Song of the Day
I am not the most focused today so if I ramble or go off topic, not that I really know what topic I am on today, it is because I have forgotten to take my medication for the last two days. Yesterday it most likely because of the dentist appointment this morning it more because I got distracted with other things and by other things I mean iTunes and my computer in general.
I sort kinda feel like Franken Stein from one of my favourite animes, Soul Eater, which I have been re-watching over the last couple of weeks in between bouts of simulcast shows on Animelab, Doctor Who, The Flash and Arrow and general DC/WB animated TV and movies. I think I will go into my love of DC in another post though.
Now back to Franken and Soul Eater in general. If you are a fan of anime and haven’t seen Soul Eater than shame on you as it is an excellent show except for maybe the end, but that is my opinion and I tend to think most anime series endings are not very good. The manga series does it better I believe but I haven’t read it all, I started too but because it sticks to the manga for the first half of the series and then deviates I got a little bored.
Well any who back to the show. What makes this one unique, not just because of the world itself but the design. It is very Tim Burtonish with a colour scheme of mainly black, white and red. It is set in alternative earth where Franken Stein is a teacher and mad scientist working for the school in Death City, Nevada. The school he works for is the Death Weapon Meister Academy (DWMA). The school is for training humans that are able to turn into weapons and those that can wield them, who are called Meisters. It is run by the Grim Reaper.
Stein, which is what he is mainly called in the show, is overcome by the madness of the main antagonist of the show, a being called a kishin, which is able to transmit it’s madness all around the world. Stein is not the most stable of characters to begin with in general due to his love of dissecting things and near the end it overcomes him and he becomes erratic, twitchy and manic. That is kind of how I feel today.
Song Of The Day